Jayanna21

You Never Know
2002-11-27 04:24:00 (UTC)

The Need

I don't remember the last time I was in need this bad. My
body aches, and my mind hurts. I need something to soothe
both of them, but I'm not completely sure of my options
right now. How can I put myself out there to be loved
when I'm not emotionally strong enough yet to get
rejected? There needs to be a balance in order for this
system to work, and right now there doesn't seem to be
one. It's been almost two years, and I don't just want to
jump into some relationship or whatever just for the fuck
of it. It needs to be special. But then, am I shutting
myself off from things that might be good for me? I'm
empty right now, I don't think I have anything to give,
yet I need to be given something. I need to be fulfilled,
and challanged. Before this need overtakes me.




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