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2002-11-26 21:46:00 (UTC)

Josh

omg im probly only going to talk about Josh in this entry.
I went to this movie night/band concert at church on
saturday night from 7-11pm.

Josh was there, and heres what happened...
The movie started and i was sitting in the row in front of
him next to Kelly & Jessica. He was sitting in the row
behind me all alone.
i turned around and i was like "are u sitting alone?" and
hes like "yeah" and he made this sad puppy dog face haha.
So i got up and sat next to him, hes like "thanks" then he
scooted as close to me as he could.
Then we both put our hands on our laps and kept moving
them closer to each others. I wanted him to hold my hand
sooooo bad.
So anyways, he finally moved his hand underneath mine and
weaved his fingers through mine. omg i was so happy. then
during the movie, he kept sitting closer and closer and
leaning on me. And he was rubbing my fingers with his, and
he took his other hand and was softly tickling my arm and
hand that he was holding. omg i wanted to die.

And the whole night after the movie, people kept asking me
if me and josh were "together".
lol i wish. But now i like josh way too much, thats so not
cool. Cuz im sure that i will end up getting hurt in the
end. Like what happens every time.
Then his band played, and they are REALLY good. he plays
drums haha just like brandon.
by the way i think im over brandon. i dont want to keep
putting up with the way he changes all the time. I wish
things were better with me and him tho.

but anyways. i like josh soooo much, his name is Josh
McKay, hes a junior (11th grade), and hes 16, he plays in
a band called ABEC, he plays drums, and writes songs, he
likes the same music as me, & has 2 brothers and 1 sister,
his dad is an associate pastor haha, and i love everything
about him

i love how he held my hand, he held it so tight and so
close to him.* and the way he touched and rubbed my arm
with his other hand,* the way he kept looking at our hands
together whenever i would rub his fingers with my thumb,*
they way we were sitting so close,* the way he leaned in
so close to tell me things during the movie,* the way he
squeezed my hand before he left,* the cute way he smiles,*
the way hes always chewing on his fingers,* the way he
always laughs at his own jokes,* the way he holds on extra
long when we shake hands,* the way he watches what i write
and how i play with my ring out of the corner of his eye
during service,* the way he makes ppl move so that i can
stand by him in groups,* the way he pretends not to see me
until i come up to him and start talking,* the way he cant
stare into my eyes for very long without having to look
away,* the way he watches me out of the corner of his
eye,* the way he sits with his legs spread apart and his
shoulder just barely touching mine,* the way he brings up
the most random things,* the way he talks to me so much
during service,* the way he apologized for not talking to
me very much after his band played,* the way hes shy about
raising his hands in worship around me,* the way hes so
passionate about his band,* the way he loves playing
drums,* the way he thought of me and brought that CD for
me,* the way he was so shy when he first met me,* the way
he always tries to get me to do this certain high five
where u pull your hand away really sharp & i always
pretend i dont know how to do it,* the way i get so
jealous and mad when he talks to other girls,* the way i
feel when im with him,* EVERYTHING about him

i honestly cannot stop thinking about him, hes so awesome,
and i like him more than any guy right now, and whenever
im not with him, i miss him.
it might seem like im obsessed, but im not, i just like
him alot. and no matter what i do i cant get my mind off
him.
but u dont understand how im so afraid of getting hurt,
but he doesnt seem like the kind of guy that would hurt
me, hes so awesome and sweet.

oh by the way haha i stole that picture of him off the
bulletin board at church so if anyone wants to see him
tell me haha.


but i have to go now so i will write more later...READ
PAST ENTRIES im out




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