Jayanna21

You Never Know
2002-11-25 03:56:36 (UTC)

Alone

Being alone is one of the worst feelings I think I've ever
experience. Correction, lonely is a better word. Being
alone is not terrible, sometimes it's welcome. But being
lonely creates this void inside that isn't easily filled.
I find myself thinking about going against my usual
standards just to get rid of that loneliness. Then I
realize what I'm thinking, and then I distance myself
completely from the person. Which just elicits even more
lonelieness. I have these ridiculous "standards" in men
that just amount to me pushing them away for no goddamn
good reason. "Oh, he's too short," "Oh, his hair's too
light," "Oh, he knows all the words to Diamond Girl."
Well, that one was valid. I hate that song. It seems easy
to veer away from this stupid line of reasoning, but when
it comes down to it all, maybe I'm just scared.




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