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2002-11-25 02:55:50 (UTC)

Harry Potter Got Raped With A Broomstick

Dear Journal,
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH ::twitch twitch twitch::
Okay, now that I have gotten over my initial feeling
since I started this, somewhat.. Feelings are rushing with
now. First point on my mind. I invited Seth to see Harry
Potter. I can understand his not wanting to go. Still, I am
dissapointed. Maybe a more thrilling movie? Well in
conversation on the phone with him he said "I think you
bowl with my sister..". Suddenly, shock. I never though
about him having a sister. I was like "ohhh... What is her
name?" and he replied "Hannah" and I immediatley remembered
seeing that name on the score screen thing. I bowled with
his sister and didn't even know it. =o What is even more
funny is when I left the bowling alley I told my mom that
there was this girl who was REALLY nice to me. THAT was
HER. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA What kind of sucks though is that
very day I sat in the bowling alley telling Kayla that I
liked Seth and all this other stuff. I REALLY hope she
didn't hear me. My god though she was nice at least. I'd do
good and she would tell me I did a good job, and I felt bad
because I never paid much attention to HER. =/ Well,
whatever. I am going to confirm this is the same person
tomorrow if he is at school. He said "see you tomorrow,
maybe." MAYBE.
Harry Potter wasn't that great. Me and Rod are going
to tell seth Harry got raped up the ass with a broom stick,
and that it was a great movie. That movie was lame, but
like Rod was making jokes through it, so it was somewhat
more amusing. Oh and if you don't like spiders DON'T SEE
IT. I about ran out of the movie theater durring one scene
of it. I couldn't sit still.
My dog has to go to the vet tomorrow. He is itching
like mad. I kind of fear them putting him to sleep. I know
it isn't fleas. It is some kind of skin thing. =X
I feel slightly, unwanted right now. No one will talk
to me. I was suprised Rod wanted to hang out today, and
Manda is sick. Not to mention I called Manda for about 3
days straight and she didn't return or answer my phone
calls but her boyfriend told me what was going on at
school, so obviously he talked to her. I got kind of upset
about it earlier but it's okay now. Maybe I am just
parinoid. Manda seems to cling to Joe, which is normal to
an extent, but I think she thinks that I am all mighty and
popular and can do without her. I am not as great as she
thinks and even if I had a billion friends to hang out with
in place of her I still would rather hang out with her.
Anyway she is sick so I understand the phone thing.
This weekend was weird. Kari's birthday party was cool
but I was so exauhsted and knew so few people I felt like
more of a party poop. In the time I spent at home, it was
boring, and even when I had people over I kept having
visions of them clinging to my door looking for a way out
as fast as they could. In other words, someone else sitting
in your house doesnt equal excitment. It meant they could
accompany me in boredom.
I am really confused right now about something but I'm
not sure what. I really want to hang out with Seth and I
think maybe I could get that to work if he didn't seem so,
homebound. I kind of fear being around him, because I like
him, and it is to the point where I am over being so scared
of talking to him. I mean I am to an extent but I don't
know how I would react being placed in a room other then at
school. I just want to ask him out flat up but something
says I need to hang out with him first. I don't fear his
rejection, but I fear my reaction. I'd probably fall over
and have a seizure on the floor. That wouldn't be good. I
do think he likes Britney but Manda is right. She is taken.
I'll let him sit around for her if he wants, and I'd
understand. I don't know. I don't know what I want, except
for that I like him. Dating is not an easy thing. Others
seem to pull it off so easily. Poor Rod though, mr pimp
daddy mack himself is fighting to reel in some Erica girl.
I see him every day at lunch. Tis be sad.
ANYWAY, if you read this, and think I should just ask
him out, tell me. Any advice is strongly appreciated. Don't
feel dumb if I don't know you. I read random entries
too ;) Okay I shall write more later.
-- Allie --




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