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Daily Confessions
2001-08-20 19:38:23 (UTC)

continued..

confession #5: alright, didn't think it would be so soon
but confession number five... WHY can't i keep my hands off
of my sisters?? (if you didn't read the first entry,
sisters meaning my fellow female slaves and subs) i think
i may have taken Master's approval of my new sexual
enlightenment of pleasuring other females and ran for the
border. i can't seem to stop myself and have already gone
twice over my limit for daily.. mm pleasurings of myself.
yes i do feel like a little slut and will from now on
exercise better self control and ask my Master to aid me in
that.

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I'm suffering from confusion.. mixed feelings... My Master
had a slave before me, ann. When He took me as His student
i barely knew her and forced myself to get to know her
quickly, to be open with her as much as with my Master so
that i would get to know her faster and with more
affection. annsis is very easy to like, she's a lot of fun
to play and cause mischief with and she's very caring and
protective. because she was a collared sister i was closer
to her than any of the others at the time.

A few weeks ago i noticed that she was coming around less,
and would stay quiet.. or seemed moody when she was here.
she lost her spunk and i was worried that perhaps she was
becoming bored. it turns out that Real Life was becoming
more interesting to her and she had found the affections of
another.. one day she announced to me that she was
going to ask to be released from her collar, for reasons
that are private to her and i won't share. I haven't cried
so hard in a long time. Then my heart got twisted around
completely again and knotted up when Master returned home
from work and found out ann's plans. They talked and i was
sure of what would happen.. began preparing myself mentally
to offer my comfort and love to SweetMaster... five minutes
later they emerged from their private chat.. my sister's
training collar had been removed and she was Master's full
slave. I was shocked to say the least... and a little
hurt both by the betrayal of my sister's announcement to
leave and then by her changing her mind so quickly...

Later on my hurt should have compacted. She called up
Master and formally asked for her release (this is all the
same day). I won't tell her reasons and they were good
ones.. but they parted amicably, both saddened though. I
on the other hand feel dull to it. ambivelant and a bit
empty hearted. I love annsissy.. and i have no anger or
ill feelings against her.. but the situation just makes me
go 'bleh..'

Ah well, it's in the past now and my duties are to focus on
Master, not yesterday.

Crossing fingers that this is the last for today, aly.





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