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trapdoors
2002-11-22 10:56:58 (UTC)

we're going hunting for bears. la la la. we're not scared.

i got a tattoo yesterday. wednesday. november 20th.
2002. mark it in the books. [mark it 8 dude] i never
thought i'd ever get one because i always thought tattoos
were lame. but i don't know, i changed my mind. i've been
thinking about getting one off and on for awhile and my
friend was going to get one so i decided hmm.

i think the reason why i waited so long to get one and why
i was so skeptical was because i never had any idea what to
get. but it came to me in my sleep. well not really...but
kind of.

my favorite band is radiohead. as anyone who knows me will
verify. and i always thought the bear face symbol was
cute...but creepy. and i figured, no it's creepy, i
wouldn't want that on my body. and then i kept looking at
it and it kept getting cuter and cuter. and less
creepier. and then since i dont really sleep, more like
dream, i've been thinking about it more and more. and
figured it would look really great on my skin. i wouldn't
have to color it in because my skin is so pale, it'd be
neat. so tuesday i made an appointment and wednesday i got
it. woo. it felt like a bee stinging me a few times, and
then it just tingled...and then when she went over the
lines it felt like another sting here and there. i can see
why people get addicted to them though, cuz it felt great
even though it kinda hurt at the same time. and when i
left i was like "YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MOTHERFUCKERRRRRRRRRRS"

*fist*

:o
[dork]

yeah so here i am. 4:55am listening to "the dancer in the
dark" soundtrack and wishing bjork were here to help me
study for my psychology test. i want her goose dress. i
want to wear it downtown during business hours.

[Bjork] What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?

[Thom] All walls are great if the roof doesn't fall

"I've seen it all
I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark
I've seen what I choose and I've seen what I need
And that is enough
To want more would be greed
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all there is no more to see"

that movie is depressing. i love it!

shoot me. stick a fork in me. i'm going to fail this test
tomorrow at 1pm. 7 hours 49 minutes 30 seconds. okay i
pulled that out of my ass...the seconds anyway. i had a
donnie darko moment there. :o

maybe legates will bring in a movie for us to watch instead
of taking the test. maybe she'll pop in donnie darko and
we'll examine why hungry hippos were so important to him as
a child.

eat it legates. time to call in sick. i'm going to slip
her a few sleepinols in her coffee.

i need to take one myself. they sit on my dresser all
green and pretty.

purple in the morning. yellow in the afternoon. and green
in the evening. i follow that pattern, i'm not quoting
from requiem. that's the sad thing. ha

well actually now i take the purple and the yellow at the
same time. same pill different dosage.

my friend's 21st birthday was yesterday. not a bad time.
i went to zombo's and it was okay but then i started
feeling like i needed to make an exit. so i did. i left
with ash and cody. they are the best. ashley was saying
how i never wanted to go to the bar with her but that was
because i was afraid she'd be off talking to her other
friends and forget about me. i dont think she'd do that
now. i was just paranoid. i think. i guess that's why i
didn't go to 80s night with krissie the one night. i
figured she would do that too. not intentionally
really...but sometimes people do that. i was never very
good at fitting in. mingling is not my forte.
occasionally i can shoot the shit.

like i'm doing right now instead of sleeping. or studying.
or watching good times. i used to watch this when i was
little. it's on my television right now on mute. kill tv.
and computers. and rock stars.

i have to break it down and get to sleep. my bear hurts.
he is saying "wash me. rub me." it's funny. when people
see me leaning over a sink washing it they probably think
i'm washing my ass. that amuses me greatly.

if anyone ever reads this thing...[yes i'm fucked up] help
me name my bear please. leave me feedback. [dork]

i want to name it. but i'm not sure what.

i probably dont care really but it's so late/early that i'm
in the current mood to talk to a tattoo on my back. ha.

bed. sleep. now.

your adhd.

suzanne.




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