me

Ignorance is bliss
2002-11-21 20:53:45 (UTC)

i was....

chosen to have my poem published i am so happy i am also a
semi-finalist in the contest i entered i can't even explain
how happy i am i feel like i have accomplished something
and i feel like i am worth something i can't explain it
anyway that is the good part of my day the bad part is that
i woke up i am getting to where i don't want to leave my
house anymore i am blocking people out in hopes it will
make me feel safe but in all i just keep feeling the need
to block more and more out i keep telling myself it would
be best if i just stayed in my room for the rest of my life
never associating with anyone i have noticed i have so much
to say but i don't know how to say it anymore i am losing
myself because i am scared of being hurt i am blocking out
people who care but in a way it makes me feel better
because if they care and i care someday one of us will get
hurt right? i have started not answering my phone i don't
want to talk to anyone everytime someone calls i want to
rip my face off anyway i am tired i think i will go take a
nap even though i have been sleeping all day and i just
woke up like an hour ago




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