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XNo_StaRLeTTe_x
2002-11-21 13:46:42 (UTC)

*WouLD U TeLl mE?*

theres so much that i need to update on....i've had so many
things happen to me the past few weeks...with evin and andy
and matt and everyone else...

well..me and evin are doing pretty well, and i think i'm
content with only him..i haven't seeen andy in two weeks and
i think hes starting to feel bad...i'm starting to feel
bad..i still love andy and everyone knows that....but i
dunno....any way...i'm over matt....ok i'm a liar i
know...but i dun talk to him unless i need something from
him...he likes that though...better anyways...he just wants
me to quit talking to him period...if he gives me a little
time..then i'll stop talking to him period....we had a
conversation the other and we both got mad at
eachother...matts so two-faced....he really is....and i've
actually seen it....i regret everyting that ever happen with
him...its almost like he did it just to have a reason to be
mad at me...then lied to me and said he enjoyed it....but
i've just been hinking alot about how matt really is....i'll
never want to be with matt,never want to be close to
him...i'll never want anything from him ever again...matt
told me that he cared about me...but i know hes lying...hes
always lied to me...but whats so weird about it..is i know
he used to care about me...but oh well...i try not to worry
about it much...

a couple weeks ago....i had to go home for a few days to
spend some ime with my mom...well we spent time....apart..me
and my mother love eachother...but we don't like
eachother....she thinks that i try to be too grown up..and i
think she needs to grow up....but anyway....i couldn't stand
to be there so much that i ended up cutting myself
again..something that i haven't done in a very long
time...oh and by the way i quit smoking...and right now i'm
thinking about andy..i miss him so much ...hes my best
friend...and i hope that me and him can stay close......i've
been sick lately and thats why i haven't seen him...but i'll
go see him as soon as i get better.....well to everyone i
know....i love u all so much...
only one question...if this was the last time u had to speak
to me...would tell me all u wanted me to know???....)(Much
love to all)(.....L8er-
xQuAzzIx

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