brighteyes

Lost In Thoughts
2002-11-21 01:07:13 (UTC)

yea yea yea

I just got done talking with holly...i guess its called a
fight though. We handled it well though. I am not even
that mad at her....she thinks i am mad cause she didnt
stand up for me. The only reason i was made is because of
what she said when she said that she wish she would have
never told me any of it...cuase she doesnt want to get in
trouble. Thats what heard my feelings. yea, i know that
she didnt stand up for me..that hurt but i wasnt mad at
her. I know i would stay up for her. Oh well. She had to
go to the play so we are going to talk later. hmm. I cant
believe how he can make us get mad at each other. I
shouldnt say anything. But he is completely wrong. He
just really hurt my feelings. He is the one that lost the
friendship. When people say things like that i figure they
wouldnt want to talk to me anyways since i am not good
enough for them and i am liar, bitch, mean, and i dont mean
anything like sorry. And then on top of that he thinks i
only tlak to guys if they love me. I never said one thing
mean about him. Even if he says stuff to hurt me. I mean i
talk to guys that dont love me..i mean no guys love me
anyways. And he never did so it doesnt matter. after i
have lost trust in people its really hard to forgive them
or earn trust. I just want him to realize that he is
missing out on a friendship but i am sure he wont or even
care. I didnt do anything hmm...i am ready to go home
this weekend. I dont know what i am going to do really.
oh well. I will be glad to see my parents...maybe hangout
with shawna and maria. I havent really talked to
kerry...its all the fake happiness. Holly knows that i
talked with Kerry in the summer about things..i dont know
how...oh well. I hope i didnt hurt her feelings. Grandma
sent me more cookies..that was sweet. I think i am going
to call my parents soon. Oh...i got guard captain. Leah
didnt. She was so sure to get it. Poor girl. At least
they have someone older. I hope my parents are proud.
hmm...I talk to a lot of guys that dont like me...it just
so happens that i dont talk to guys first cause i dont
think they like me so then i think that they want to talk
to me...and if they do then maybe they like so...i dont
know. hmm..this kid jeremy keeps wanting to call me..he is
really swert. But no..its just like a cyco....next week he
will stop liking me and then someone new. I hate myself.
bye.




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