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Ducky
2002-11-18 02:31:53 (UTC)

lost.

eh, i guess i'm not lost, i know where i am, right here.
thing is how to i get from where i am(point A) to the point
i wanna get (point B). i mean i kno how to get there, just
seems like its hard, prob cuz i'm not used to being so
good. i mean i could be worse then what i've been, right? i
don't want to stop everything that i've been doing, and
people i know says i dont have to. i dont think i have to
either, i just have to be responsible, some ppl think that
responsibilty is the least thing u have to worry bout, ITS
A BIG ASS THING. crazy. i duno, i just felt weird at
church, i mean i belonged there, and i felt like i did, i
believe in God and all, just felt like i was a hypocrite, i
gotta get over that feeling, i gotta get over alot of
things, like myself. I mean i'm not goin to stop being a
teenager and grow up in like 2 seconds i just wanna be a
responsible one, one where her mother trusts her. Anyway, i
feel good right now. cuz i understand, but not too much if
that makes any sense. its true, talk is cheap, i gotta
change that when it comes to me. blahblahblah, drama, gotta
hate it. Anyways, what to do, i need a job. get some
dinero. prob get some money, buy a new scanner since
someone stole it, then pay my mother back for the citation,
help matt out with his money troubles, then i duno. i have
a cat, i wanna throw it out the window, but she makes my
baby princess happy, which makes me happy, even tho i hate
that cat, but somethin makes me wana care for her. What to
do what to do, why do i care so much for this certain
person? when i know i shouldnt cuz all i'll get is
heartbreak, i think this shit is too much for a frickn 16
year old. - eh oh well, i'll just eliminate the problem -
eat the cat, just kidding. damn flips. haha. man i have too
many thoughts, i'll finish this later, i'm thinking too
much which makes my head hurt, so i'm TOTALLY done, like
for sure! haha right. byebye birdy




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