mity mouse

the bible as told by mouse
2002-11-17 22:50:06 (UTC)

dont wanna dance if he cant be everythin that i dream of

my problem sumed up by pink ladies n gents! hit the nail on
the head exactly im afraid to get into a relationship with
a guy who mite not b everythin i need cos im limitin myself
and possibly leadin on a perfectly "nice" guy. this is the
sole reason i aint gon out with dave. i like him but i
dunno if i LIKE him ya no n i just feel it wud b rong 2 try
n find out. Or mebbe its what i dread may b the
truth...that i want my last relationship 2 hav bin with the
guy i love still though i fuckin wish i cud 4get about him
but every moment im alowed 2 think he sneaks back into my
mind, the thinks he would say 2 me, how he would treat me,
how he used 2 kiss me, touch me. Im scared i dont wanna
4get him deep down. I cant bring myself 2 delete his txts
or emails because they r all i hav left of possible the
true love of my life. i no that sounds so melodramatic but
what if that was it 4 me, what if that was love n i lost
it, i wanna always b able 2 remember it. Another reason
which i h8 myself 4 but may well b the case is that i dont
wanna date dave becaus ethen if christa n rob spilt up he
wudnt wanna date me cos he mite think i betrayed him or
sumthin! rediculous i know seen as he prob wud neva date me
anyway afta our huuuuuuuuuge fall out but what the hell
else can i do 2 stop myself. Mebbe datin anotha guy mite b
the answer, sum1 unrelated 2 him. It wont solve the last bf
thing but im gunna hav 2 move on @ sum point n if he eva
duz want me back i wont hav hurt him by doin what he did 2
me, cos thats how he wud c it, revenge. confusion every
where ah ah ah!!!! the world wud b a much simpler place if
u only had 2 think about ur own happyness dont ya think
Over n out
Luv THE mouse x x




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