SiLVeRsWaRM

LiFe o' SiL
2002-11-17 02:59:25 (UTC)

CHaNGe

Today things were going not so good. The weekends
usually are not the best for me because I have too much
idle time to think about things back at my old home and
all the people that I miss. I miss my family, my friends,
the security of a stable home, and most of all childhood.
I envy all the children that I see playing in their
yards and around town. I remember what it was like to be
one of them, not a care in the world and little or no
responsibility. They have no idea what life has in store
for them, nor do they know how cruel the real world can be.
Growing up I went through a lot of things that a
younger person shouldn't have to deal with. I miss the
old days, I miss having a person to call my own. Yes,
this is the one thing I miss most. True love is the
greatest gift that God has bestowed on mankind, and yet it
is our worst enemy as well. It can make you feel like you
can conquer anything, or it can tear you down from the
highest peaks of life and plunge you into a deep dark
valley of dispair. Personally I think that the peaks make
any valley, no matter how deep, survivable.
The worst feeling in the world is losing that one
special person you care for so much, but in a close second
is loving that person and not knowing how they feel in
return. This weekend, I started to wonder if I my love
would ever be answered.
Like every time I start to feel down, I turn on some
anime to distract me and get my mind off of the harder
times. Im very glad that I did, because in so doing, I
heard a quote that hit very close to home. The captain of
the Nirvana (The main ship in Vandread) said this: "Its
best to keep you head up when the going gets tough, much
better than looking down into darkness, we still have our
lives after all."
I realize that good things are worth the wait, and
also, like what Jeff said so well, "Life is all about
timing."
I will continue my vigilant wait for my feelings to be
returned. Until that day I will hold my head high.




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