laviedujour

Diary RSH
2002-11-16 19:41:31 (UTC)

Really pisses me off

I'm sorry, I know I've already written about theis, but it
really is pissing me off.

It's what I get in return for doing stuff for people. Is
the stupid fucking band pratice more important then my
littel birthday get together which i was looking forward
and had planned a while before this band thing came up?

I;m not holding back from this, I'm gonns show them how
pissed I really am! Like what do I have to do, give them
money I don't have? Like who are my real friends? I know
Selina would never do anything like that, it's too bad she
just can't drink with me, but I still value her friendship,
and her family, they've treated me very well over the
years. Mika and Allan, if they we're here, I know they
wouldn't do something liek that.

I do have many other freinds, but I don't want to have a
big bash where the cabin gets trashes, only a small get
together with the "friends" who i know the best.

Sure I could change plans and invite people like Kim,
Melissa, Meghan etc.but I wouldn't be the best host for
them, I guess you could say we're just more school friends
then outside of school.

Well I can't say much about "the band" (luke, nick, robert,
tyler) They never invite me or Selina to anything, they all
go to their stupid ass things, liek I'll go to school on
monday, they went to the movies..HELLO, maybe i would have
like to gone too. They have their band, and they wanted
soem of my lyrics, so I let them read some and they burn
me, just trashed my work!

I know that where I go, Selina will follow, so maybe it's
time I left those ungrateful assholes and go somewhere
else, go somewhere where my good deeds are shown.

Besides all of this, I had a good chat with my step-sister
in LA, her and her friends are pretty excited about me
coming down, 13 more days!

After I made my entry last night, I gave very hard thought
to wheter if I should tell Allan and Mikato read
everything. I did conclud that I would tell Allan first,
as for Mika is too busy at the moment, and also if just has
to be the right time..which times that are right, don't
come by too much, so it's up to me to make the right time,
which I can do. So in conclusion, I'm pretty much sure
that the next time Allan is online, I'll tell him to read
all of this..just gotta have a little bit of faith.

On a other note I found a name for my new screanplay..i'm
calling it "When Dreams Were Worth Keeping" I think it goes
good.

Anyways, Thanks for reading, take care




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