Locked Inside my Book
Here are the lyrics to one of the greatest songs ever by
Pantera. I love this song. Ever since 8th grade bullshit.
SUICIDE NOTE PART 1
Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take
the pain away
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot
see inside yours and mine
When I'm hiding, when I need it, it lets me
breathe, for our handle on this life, I don't believe
Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again.....
Forever fooling, free and using, sliding down the
slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are
you to regress unfulfilled? It's a damn shame,
but who's to blame?
Ok anyways, guess what i did today...went shopping and
stuff. Today is my mom's birthday. My grandmother took us
out to lunch at the Olive Garden. That was the first time I
had ever been there and OMG i think the place is georgious.
I just love the whole italian/rome look. i told my mom that
i wanted a house exactly like that. yea this is totally not
like me...i want a house just like the OLIVE GARDEN. LOL.
well anyways...more proof of how much of a dork i am. ok i
went shopping at the mall and i got that kool blue/orange
longsleeve shirt i've been wanting. My mom was proud of me
b/c i chose something other than black and it wasn't a band
shirt. I also got something else i've been wanting for a
long time. FISHIES!!!! I got like 4 fish, a tank with all
the necessary equipment and shit all for 20.00. Decent. I
have their names all set out. The smallest one which is a
female is Jakki (ME), the one that is male is Jonathan Davis
and the other two which i can't tell whether they are male
or female are Munky and Head. DORK! I swear that's what i'm
going to name my pet dog... um yea if i ever get one. ok...
me and my mom are chillin tonight. we rented movies and
shit. We rented Me,Myself, and Irene. (funny ass movie) We
also rented the Mexican...great movie but too long.. 2
hours and 3 minutes!. and another movie called Dead of
Night. My mom and i never finished it b/c basically the
movie sucked ass and i didn't want to watch the rest.
Lastnight, i exploded with drawings... i was up till like 2
in the morning with KooL pictures. I drew a bunch of punks
and shit and weird people. Fuckin awesome. Today i picked
up an application for a job at the Governor's Inn doing
dishwashing. I do dishes like a pro so it should be nooo
problem. If i don't get the job there then i'm heading to k-
mart or maybe the book store at the mall. hmmm i just
thought of that. ok well saturday i'm finishing up my
school shopping. i'm almost done. i've already got a shit
load of kool shirts and a couple jeans. Now i just need to
pick up a couple more kool shirts and some more jeans and a
pair of my wonderful PUMAS!! and of course i need school
supplies but not much b/c i only need 2 binders b/c i only
have 2 FUCKIN MAJOR CLASSES FOR THE FIRST SEMESTER. i love my
schedule can u tell. can u also tell that i'm a little
loopy when i write. I'm soo weird. ok i have nothing more
to tell any of u people who actually read this crazy
pointless shit! goodbye!
To actually understand why i'm so crazy when i wrote this, read it
very fast b/c that's the speed that i'm writing and that's the speed
that these thoughts actually come to me.