Michael Through Time

The Mad Scientist's Notebook
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2002-11-14 06:10:00 (UTC)

Goals: A Commentary

there is no news in this entry. Just some thoughts and
some ideas that working on this has inspired.

I never thought achieving goals were so hard. There are so
many distractions in life. I'm working hard trying to
scrape together what money I can. It's really hard. I
know that a lot of you that read this will probably say so
what and tell me, somewhat deservedly that I don't get no
sympathy.

In some ways I agree with that assessment. After all there
are people out there who do what they set out to do without
much hussle and bussle. They just go out there and do it.
I would like to know that secret. As is, I barely scrape a
few bucks every week. I am moving forward, but it's going
a lot slower then I thought and with my leave of absence
from college over, I realize that I'm nearing the point
where money so free and loose will become tighter. It will
be a lot harder to save up for it for the next little while.

I'm not quitting. I've worked too hard and too long to
stop now. That said I never fully appreciated it till I
started trying to save at the beginning of the summer.

I haven't saved nearly as much as I thought I would have.
Part of that is unexpected surprises and distractions life
provides. My need of things I never expected but pop up
regularly surprise me. I never quite prepare for it.

I have learned how to set a budget...but it's hard keeping
one. With money comes freedom and power. The power to do
things. I can't say I have a lot, and with college coming
about I can't say I'll have a lot for while. But the
temptation to spend money is hard...I never knew how hard.

I've saved money before...but when you work in a factory it
is a lot easier to save then working at a grocery store.
You don't make too much there...grant you the work is
easier, but you don't get compensated for it. Not that I
hate my job, but money is nice...and I don't get enough of
it.

I have failed to bring about the book when I wanted
to...when I had the perfect opportunity to. I'm going to
have to take longer to do it. I regret not having the book
out when I wished it to be. That hurts me a little. The
pride especially...because I could have brought it out by
now if I hadn't been so careless.

But that's in the past. I have to learn from this and move
ahead.

I'm not sure when the book will be out. It can be today,
tomorrow or next year sometime. It's my own fault, but I
accept it.

That doesn't mean this is the end. In fact, I've only
begun. I will give you some news on the artistic side of
things. I will talk about the progress I have made. I
think I'm going to do it. It's only a matter of time.

I've learned that achieving anything takes sacrifice and
dedication. The drive to succeed requires great
sacrifices. I also learned that I still have some growing
up to do. But hey, I can change...given time. I will
achieve this.

In the meantime, keep watching. I'll release more and more
of the poems over time. I guarantee you'll be in for some
treats. Just watch and learn.

Anything worthwhile takes time. With those of you trying
to build your own endeavors don't give up or let any
setback slow you down. Learn from your mistakes and don't
surrender. Because you'll regret it for the rest of your
life.

I'm not quitting. I'm going to keep doing this. I hope
those that read this keep fighting to their goals.

There is no shame in falling short...there is shame in not
getting back up.

The Mad Scientist


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