Ashie

fuck you
2002-11-13 23:23:09 (UTC)

BLEHHHHHHHH

i got hurt again.. i wasn't on all day yesterday because
the night before my brother got into a car accident and i
spent all night and day there yesterday... by his side..
he's gonna die i think... he keeps slipping in an outta
comma's.. got like 30 tubes comming outta him.. and he's
hooked up to like 12 machines.. *sigh* and then i come home
this morning, and log on to check my mail.. and omeone sent
me kyle's journal entry for last night when he was like "do
i still want to be with her? who knows......" and talked
about how much he liked aps.. grrrrrnedd.. so i am blowing
off classes to go back up there.. bleh, i just broke up
with kyle.. i think, he's going on about how we can't have
a relationship because we dont talk.. blehhhhhh.. he thinks
that i am/was avoiding him... OH YEAH LETS AVOID THE PERSON
THAT I LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING! well next to my brother...
he's my.. i dunno, my saneness... he's always there for
me... always... when i tried to kill myself, he saved me,
when kyle hurt me the first couple of times, he was
there... its always been that way... he's... just there,
he's my brother, my... everything, i dont wana live without
him, and no more i dont have to if he dies.. then so do
I :) its that simple... specially now that i lost kyle...
KYLE if you ever read this know that I LOVE YOU and
everything thati have ever done, the jealousy, flipping out
is because I LOVE YOU you may not believe it.. but damnit,
i do.. and you also april, i want you to have the greatest
life, ever... and just, be happy... to everyone else that
has ever hurt me.. i've got something to say to you...
G_ F_CK Y__RS_LF - Would anyonelike to buy a vowel? ...
well yeah, i am gonna go now... *sigh* this is goodbye
maybe for good.. byebye

_~*ashley*~_ if any random people read this.. you can
always get ahold of me, by sending me a msg here or
AIM: o0ogodesdorko0o
MSN: [email protected]
and that is also my e-mail address.




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