Eyes4Guys

Personal hell & back again
2002-11-13 20:02:16 (UTC)

Titanic

In this day of age, it is hard to know how to love someone.
We are taught at a young age that there is love at first
sight and that love is forever. The one true love will
always be there and will never die, even if the body does.
That you will get through any obstacle as long as you love.
We were taught that love, true love the kind that makes you
hurt and makes you do anything, is a miracle in itself. Not
many people get to experience the awesome power of love.
Many believe they do, but how will they know?

We can not learn how to love from our parents anymore, when
most stories end in such tradegy, where love dies. But yet,
they taught us that love never dies. We can not learn
anymore from them. The only place I've ever learned to love
like I do is from movies. Many movies preach love so
strongly that you do fall in love with the characters and
you go through everything that they go through. If the
story is good and the acting is superb, you will feel any
emotion that they will make you feel. While many peoples
teach us that love happens with time, some teach us of love
at first sight. Movies like the Titanic, get to me the most.

I was in my recliner last night, dressed to go out, but was
at home watching this movie instead. I decided that I would
much rather spend time alone rather then with some guy like
Shawn who would do nothing but touch on me and try to kiss
me again at a strip joint and Max who would just want to
joke around with me and rub up on me. They are harmless,
but I decided that to stay home and avoid all that would be
the best. So I grabbed a movie, and popped it in. I turned
off my lights and leaned back in my chair and wrapped
myself in a blanket. So here I was, warm and comfortable,
ready to see another love story again and remember
everything I felt when I saw it the first time. Movies like
this make me sit and think for hours, and that is how I
learned to love.

I sit and watch as Rose and Jack met at the most horrible
circumstances and how their time together was forbidden and
they had to fight for time together. Though she was
engaged, she wasn't in love with Cal. He kept her caged in
a world that she no longer wanted to be in. Her unhappiness
brought her to the back of the boat to end it all, but Jack
stopped her. His reward was dinner with the upperclass,
though he was of the third class. There he impressed Rose
and stole her to actually have fun, to avoid the properness
of how her mother and fiancee were forcing her to be. She
let go and had the time of her life. By the end of that
night, she was in love..

Of course, we all know the story of how the Titanic sank,
and all the horror that every passenger much have went
through. The unsinkable Titanic was now sinking on her
first trip, her maiden voyage. How horrible it must have
felt, to believe so badly that you were safe and then
suddenly to knwo that you will die in the middle of the
ocean where there was no one to find you, no one remotely
close to save you. From far away, it was horribel for the
characters in the movie to see the ship to sink from the
safety boats, but imagine just how horrible it had to be
have been, to be on the end of the boat as you saw the ship
break apart and then sink into the water, suctioning you in
with it. And once the ship sank, the worst was over, but
now they had to sit in the water, which was certain death
for all of them, except a few. Rose being one. And she went
through so much to save Jack as he had saved her in so many
ways.

My emotions were flying when she let go of his frozen hand
and let him sink into the Atlantic. To see his face
disappear and know that she would never again get to see
him. To forever promise him to live on without him. All
that she had been through. Jack had to have died within a
matter of 20 minutes in the water. Hypothermia got to him,
but she survived because he made her. Love on a true level,
but it also reaches, or maybe just merely reminds us of
love at first sight.

Hopefully none of us will ever have to go through another
tradegy. Maybe we had a relative on that boat, and if you
did, you know the stories. You would also know that they
made yet another ship like the Titanic, a smaller version,
but you would also know that it sank as well. Anything
bearing the name of R.M.S. Titanic was doomed for failure,
except the movie.

The ship would have been sailing today if a few simple
mistakes would have been taken care of. The first mistake
in itself was that Mr. Andrews didn't make enough boats, nt
by half, to save the passengers in case of an accident. The
boats were along the deck and there were only 20, with
enough room to accomidate 70 people. That was enough to
save 1400 poeple, max. There were over 2200 people on that
ship. The second mistake being that the captain felt
coerced to run the ship on full speed to reach America a
day in advance, to bring headlines to the ship. He did this
at night, when the seas were calm and you couldn't see the
water break on the icebergs, which he had fair warning were
out there. In order to retire with honor, he ignored the
warning and the 26 years of experience he had. He thought
that he could manuever the ship to dodge the iceberg, which
wasn't a large one at all on the surface but was massave
down below. He thought that my reversing the engines and
turning the boat that it would miss colliding with the
iceberg. Another mistake was that the boats were not filled
completely, they weren't even filled half full. It was
large enough to fill the weight of 70 men, so naturally it
could fill more people because not everyone was heavy. The
first boats were for women and children, they do not weigh
half as much, so the boats could have been filled further
than they were. Some boats in the movie had only 20 people
in it. Granted the boats were filled with women and
children, they were discriminating, filling only the boats
with first class passengers only. Third class was left down
below to drown. Yet, Jack and Rose could have been on a
boat if Jack hadn't been locked below decks. They got on to
the deck, and she was placed on a boat, but she left
because she wouldn't leave without him. "You jump I jump,
right?"

I know people love each other. I mean look at me, I love
Chris. But that isn't the point. We don't know how to love
anymore. It is movies that teach us to love again. I had
focus when I wrote this, and I lost it. But with everyone
going on with my Mom suddenly in the hospital again, Chris
sayng that it is inevitable that he's going to have to go
to war before this "war" is over, and Jackie being
pregnant, so many things. I lost my focus. I am losing my
focus on a lot of things, and I need to get that focus
back. When I do, things will be easier, like it once was.




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