groovellaa

why be normal?
2002-11-13 06:03:38 (UTC)

am i ever sick

this is the worst flu or whatever it is i have ever had

i feel so stoned. i phoned friends and left weird
messages, so they phone my parents and my mom comes by
with her KEY,,,have to get that backkk and checks up on
me.

so i got to be gothic personals person of the day. great,
inbox of zillion emails. which has made me wonder if i am
as unpretentious as i think i am but i think so. it is ok
to be different then others. i try not to judge, just
realize some of the young ones are just that, young. so
many say age doesn't matter. i don't get that, how many
times have i talked with some younger person that looks
like a deer with headlites in his eyes. they have no
clue. maybe just different life experiences. but really
there is no way i could get involved with some guy who
lives in his parents basement with posters of heavy metal
rock bands on his walls. and why are those people in
gothic personals? this word goth and gothic has been used
too freely what does it mean anymore?? i know to me it
don't mean death metal music and putting fucking makeup on
to look like the CROW,,,,,,,,fuckkk,,,,,,,is this the
pretentious part i wonder about. well if so then i guess i
am. but i am hardly a snob. i would be nice to those
still, but just don't try to tell me how you understand me.

maybe i should look elsewhere for a mate? but the reg
personals have reg people don't they? they would come into
my houseand faint. i really don't think the idea of me
beinf alone forever is that far fetched anymore. it would
help to move to a bigger city,,,,but then there is the
money issue. besides i hardly go out anymore, so why not
just stay here inside the darkness.




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