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run run run all you do is fucking run...

...but you'll never run away from yourself." thanks thomas
from catch 22, your so right. ("dear sergio") fuck that, i
could run away from my self if i wanted. cause myself is
nothing but the shit around me. i could remove myself from
this environment and be just fine. i don't need like...90%
of the people im affiliated with. sure, id miss a lot of
them, but i don't want to be here anymore. i wanna ditch
the cigarettes, i wanna ditch the booze and the pot. why
get fucked up? i don't know. why not get fucked up? i don't
know. why be straight edge? i don't know. i ditch the
people, i ditch the habits. fuck it, fuck that, fuck me,and
fuck you.
if don't need 90% of the people i know, why do i keep
them? im not keeping the, they're keeping me. keeping me
here. i guess. i don't really have an answer for that. my
mom, don't need her, i suppose id miss her though. usually
when i go away for a while, on tour or a trip or something,
i dont' miss her, i don't even miss my bed, i usually my
own toilet. matt, i suppose id miss him too. rich, great
buddy of mine, i'd miss him a lot. dave, we've drifted, but
id definitly miss him. laura...i guess. i guess the only
person id really like to keep by me is lauren. we have are
disagrement, and we can get on each others nerves, but
tonight, now, i feel like id need her. she's the only one
that makes me feel really good about myself...sometimes.
like the other day, i was wearing a green shirt, and she
says "green is a really good color on you, you odn't wear
enough of it." what does that mean? i don't know, but she's
the only one that's ever said anything like that to me.
those are some of my friends that im really close to. i
mean, i got, joe and brand, nikki and well, my school
friends, like darin, dwayne and kadejah. i guess i don't
have many friends. those stupid chinese zodiacs say my
friends will be life long though. i guess.
i wanna get outta here, hit up some town in matt's car
and set up shop. "hey...sergio...it's getting kinda hot in
here?"

mjb