Marisha,Terry's imag. friend

life, or something like it
2002-11-09 02:48:59 (UTC)

qualities of mine.

am i going through what he went last year? i mean what's up with
the "i don't know why he even wants to be with me" thing?? so i asked
him...

___my words: i don't know why you're with me... and i've been
wondering why do we keep doing this... and i've been a total bitch,
and i get the feeling like you are getting further away from me...
and i don't know why you want to be with me........
___his: i want to be with you cause i love you, it's as simple as
that. and i knew that first time i saw you, and since then i won't
forget it.
___mine: i still don't know why..... i mean everytime i freak out
like that and bitch at you. and you don't exactly like russians..
it's just weird, really weird
___and his: You're not russian, you're canadian. and besides, kissing
you was a near orgazmic-mental feeling for me, i can never let go of
that.

so why does what skye said fit me better?
"you are not a bitch,- he said,- you're a sweet caring person, and
you love him, and he loves you"
then he sent a lot of kissies. and then he said he loved me. *smiles*
he's really sweet, and i love him, no, not in that kind of way. i so
care about him, and i hope it all works out for him and arcelia, but
if she does not appreciate every bit of the person he is, then she
will never know true love. because he is so perfect! i mean it, i
mean like the perfect human being. it's weird how i say it, and all i
think of him is beign my friend. and i wouldn't trade it for the
world.

so now i know what the weird feeling is all about, and it's now even
weirder, because yoshi is not doing that much of a job reasuring me,
and that's what i need right now. oh god, help me, prevent me from
doing something really stupid. i really don't know what's wrong with
me. and i really don't think yoshi belongs with me, i think he
deserves someone better than me, and i love him more than anything in
this world, so how can this be true?? i'm so confused! please
somebody help me!

for now, love all, marisha.




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