Uck...I just feel like...blah.
What is wrong with me?
I don't want to do anything. I just want to go to bed and
sleep for days and days I don't want to move ever again. I
just want to crawl into a hole and die. I just want to
vanish, I just want to disapear. I want to melt away into
That's how I feel today. I have no energy. I have no
passion. I want to see something die, I want to feel
something painful. I want to be brought back to live again.
I want to scream and cry and laugh.
Blah. Blah blah blah.
Ugh whats wrong with the world? Why don't you all just die?
Why do we even bother waste the air?
Why am I even bothering tryin to go to school? I don't think
I have the endurance for this shit. You people suck, you
bring me down. Everything brings me down. But you
especially, with your attitudes and bullshit drama...yea go
ahead and act like my friend. I know you are full of shit. I
know your fucking fake. I've seen this enough times to know
what it looks like. I have something you want. I just want
to isolate my self from the rest of the world. I just want
to walk for hours and hours until I have no idea where I am
and my feet will be so sore they I'll cry. But I will be
away from it all...I will be away from everything I think I
know. But then I will come to know where I am and I will
have to leave again...will I never be satisifed? I don't
know why I bother to try and participate in your world of
lies and bullshit. I don't fit into your society, I don't
agree with any of you. I smile and nodd and listen quietly
and politely to every ounce of shit that comes out of your
worthless mouth, but god forbid you hear a word I have to
say. You money hungary bastards. Everything you value is
fake and materlistic. America can blow my dick. I do not
belong in your world. I belong over seas in some
unacknowledged tribe. Why was I born into this bullshit!!!
AND FREEDOM??? YOU CALL THIS FREEDOM? NOBODY IS FUCKING
FREE! NOBODY IS FREE FROM THE STRESS AND MISERY THAT WE
CREATE FOR OURSELVES! BUT HOW ELSE DO WE KNOW HOW TO
BE? EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US IS NOTHING BUT A FUCKING
PROGRAM! NOBODY IS FREE FROM LAWS AND RULES THAT YOU SET FOR
US, IN OUR BEST INTERESTS...BUT WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW
ABOUT OUR BEST INTERESTS? YOU DON'T LET US LIVE, YOU TELL US
WHAT TO THINK AND WHAT TO FEEL. YOU TELL US THAT WE NEED
PRETTY THINGS AND LOTS OF MONEY. YOU TELL US THAT IT IS
WRONG TO STEAL, WHILE EVERY DAY OUR INNOCENCE AND RIGHT TO
THINK FOR OURSELVES IS STOLEN! TELL ME THIS, WHAT MATTERS
MORE? THE POSSESSIONS, OR THE FUCKING PEOPLE??? ugh what's
the point...fuck it. I am going to go turn my brain off and
sleep for a few months. this world...I dunno..it's bullshit