SkittlezRFallN

My confused world
2002-11-06 04:23:45 (UTC)

Soul Taker

I'm in hell,
being tortured in a chamber cell
I feel the heat,
The pain burns through the flesh of my feet
Dead souls rising w/ a twist,
Gloomy,Depressed,Soul Less
They take your soul w/ one kiss,
Not a sign of bliss.
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yea, my life is a little rough lately. Not just in my
relationships. My parents as well. I'm just so angry and
confused w/ my mom. I love my parents both dearly and they
mean so much to me that I wouldn't want either one of them
to be unhappy. I know my mom isn't "IN LOVE" w/ my dad she
just loves him. And I'm ok w/ that. People now a days don't
stay together long anyhow and if you do, lucky you and good
luck. My parents haven't really been getting along for the
past year or 2 so I knew it would happen eventually. But, I
never expected what my mom is doing now. I mean if she
doesn't want to be w/ my dad anymore she doesn't need to
hurt him by cheating on him. He already knows she's seeing
Kathy yet my mom still lies about where she's going. Oh I'm
going here or I'm going there but I know where she really
is going b/c she tells me. I hate being in the middle and
that's what it seems like. They both tell me stuff and I'm
suppose to keep it from the both of them. I hate it. My mom
is always dissing my dad and likewise for my dad. My dad
for a while thought everything was happy go lucky and
sometimes he still does but IT's NOT!! And it probably
never will be again. I just can't help in thinking what is
going to actually happen and how it's gonna be like for me
in the future. It's just so rough right now in my home. My
parents are never home so basically it's my house now. My
dad has been just smokin,drinkin,watchin football,goin to
bars, and work. My mom is always w/ Kathy or work. I never
get to see either one of them hardly. I'm sick of every
time I want to do something w/ my mom she has plans w/
KATHY. grrrr Then when I have plans b/c I figured she'd do
something w/ Kathy again, she wants to do something. She
keeps asking me if I'm ok w/ it. Well I'm not stopping her.
I wont say I'm approving of the situation b/c I"m not I'll
just say what ever makes her happy. And that's what I care
about. But, I know my dad isn't going to be happy. And then
when he finds someone there's gonna be another bitch in the
house. Me and this other woman probably will fight for a
while. CATFIGHT!!! lol j/k I just wonder what's gonna take
place. My mom really needs to make a dicision and she needs
to just tell my dad how she feels. He needs to know I think.
She keeps leading him on and going w/ it like one day he'll
never catch on or blow up. It's crazy. I just hope
something works out....




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