budgielvr

troubled in SC
2002-11-05 06:28:04 (UTC)

Depressed

Here I sit at a little after 1am and my moods have been swinging today.I gotta get up early in the morn to take Cindy to group and then go to the other house to load up some more stuff.I'll be so glad to get all this stuff moved.I wish I could get some money coming in too.I ge so tired of having Cindy being the only one o bring in any money.When she gets mad I really get reminded of it too!!Sometimes I wanta go back to driving a truck byt I really hate to be gone all the tome and I hate driving in the ice and snow in the winter.I wish I had not got sick last Christmas because it has changed my life so much.I'm tired of all the depression that I have.I hate all the feelings of worthlessness too.I hate my wife nt giving me sex and I hate being turned on all the time.I hate taking this Zoloft cause when I try to masturbate it takes so long.I long to feel a womans lips on mine and long to caress her body all over and kiss her all over.I get tired of looking at all the ladies and wondering what it would be like to have sex with them.One of these days maybe I will get some help.I pray God will not send me to hell.I feel guilty of all the thoughts I have about the other women and all the dirty thoughts I have.




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