Lisha

Jay's Broken Babygirl
2002-11-05 05:42:42 (UTC)

barbwire promises

as i sit here, eating my cookie dough, i realize i have
just been through one fucked up weekend. first off, friday
me and Jason went to tampa to evies. now, i told evie
wednesday me and Jason were coming to pick her up so we
could get our tongues pierced. what does she do? go to her
boyfriends, daniel, whom i do not like. so we wait, making
Jason late for work and right before i get on the crosstown
home, she calls and we go to the place. i was the only one
that got mine done because daniels mom made evie dinner and
we could not wait for her. so i got mine pierced. hurt like
a bitch, too. then i took Jason to work and waited over at
regency until he got off. we got off, and went to (where
else?) guys. Jason proceeded to get drunk. then we leave
guys to go to jons with blake. Jason proceeds to get even
more drunk, and stoned. then we went back to Jasons. i
stayed the night then got up early and went home to get
ready for work. after work i picked Jason up and did
something that i can not for the life of me remember at the
moment. but i stayed the night that night too. woke up
yesterday morning, went home, got ready, went to work. when
i got off, i went to Jasons work to see him and to tell him
i would take him home. i get home and change. right before
i leave, i decide to check my email. mom asks me a
question. my lisp from my tongue piercing still has not
gone away yet. so i start talking, and the next thing i
know, my mother is in my face screaming at me for what i
did. i could have ignored it. i knew she would eventually
calm down. but then she started insulting Jason. i knew if
i stayed, i would have done something i would regret, so i
left. daddy calls me up on my way to get Jason and he
screams at me. i scream back, to tell him if he was that
pissed off at me for what i did, then i would not come
home. i told him i would bring the car back that night and
be gone by the next day. i arrived at Jasons work in tears.
i was hoping to tell him on the way home what happened. it
did not work out that way. i ended up taking ben home, with
dominic in the car while Jason rode with two other friends.
we drop ben off. Jason stays in the other car. we get to
Jasons house. the two friends leave. dominic does not. i
ask Jason to go to the store with me. he asks dominic to
come along. finally, dominic stayed in the car while we
bought cigarettes. i told him what happened. he held me and
said i was moving in with him. we get back to his house and
talk. he convinced to go home and talk to my parents. i
went home. we did not say anything to each other, but i was
there. then this morning i paid off my speeding ticket.
spent the day with nikki. then Jason got out of school and
i went to his house and waited for him. he slept most of
the day, but i knew he was tired. when nikki left, she said
to call her when i was ready and she would give me a ride
home. well i called her and amanda said she was gone, but
would tell her to call me. so i waited and waited. no call.
so finally, i told Jason nikki was picking me up and left.
i wish i had not lied to him. i called him later and
confessed in a voicemail. the same thing that happened with
rob, is happening to Jason. i can not lie to him. even when
i cheated on him, i told him to his face what i had done. i
walked home, and here i am. i listened to my voicemails
while i was waiting, and one of them was rob screaming at
me for posting on here what he told me abot him and kelly.
i am sorry, but i would never do that. one, i promised him
i would not tell anyone. and i have not. i do not know how
he thinks i did. i made a reference to her, yes, but i
never told anyone what happened. and i never will.




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