doubleL868

Thoughts on Sex
2002-11-05 03:31:08 (UTC)

Everyday is a piece of shit

10:20
ok so today was monday and we had no school...yay! today was
just a lazy kind of day. i just really wanted to go out
tonight but as you can clearly see by the time i never got
to leave my house with people other than my family tonight.
sometimes i just want to scream at my mom! she just makes it
sound like she doesn't trust me to make good decisions about
where i'm going and what i'm going to do...i know not to
drink and smoke and have sex...but truthfully am i going to
not do those things? no as a matter of fact hell no...and
this is mostly due to the fact that they don't let me go
anywhere and they're so protective...if my parents would let
me go places i wouldn't try to rebel against them and sneak
around them as much as i do. obviously they don't realize
this but whatever. i guess they just think they're doing a
fine job the way it is. i mean they're doing pretty good but
if i'm always mad at them then that's not too good is it? i
think not but whatever. i feel like i'm about to have a
panic attack whenever she is like no you can't go there i'm
not comfortable with this. i mean not everything is
comfortable sometimes a little risk is always good....never
hurt anyone!....damn!!!! FUCK IT ALL!!! maybe i should stop
taking the paxil and get so suicidal that i acctually do
kill myself this time! huh? would that be a good idea?!?! i
think so!!!
10:31




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