My problems.
2002-11-04 16:59:41 (UTC)

She never said....

Today is my birthday and I went to my old high school to
see the people that I thought cared about me. Olivia
and Nikki said happy birthday to me and Olivia even
gave me two books that I will problably read. The worst
part is that I couldn't sit near Stephanie. I felt so alone
after I walked over there. Something was missing and
she didn't even say hello. I said hello to her and she
just waved and looked beyond me. I felt so insecure
there. She didn't even say Happy Birthday. I think about
all the time I spent planning her birthday and how much
I cared about getting her all the right gifts and making
her feel special on her day. She couldn't even tell me
happy birthday or wish me a nice day. Even though we
aren't friends supposedly anymore she could have
atleast said Happy Birthday. That did hurt a lot and I got
a line of a new poem I may start w/ that experience.
The line starts out :

A single teardrop swims down my cheek...

Then it would go on and stuff. It's just an idea. I wrote it
in my little book of poem ideas that Stephanie wrote on
for me.

As soon as I got back to my house I called Angela and
thanked her for wishing me a happy birthday on AIM. I
talked to her for a while and then I went over to her
house and got the gifts she wanted to give me. Thanks
a lot Angela. I appreciate it. I'm "Dangerously
Chessey" :D.

So yeah I guess I'll survive. I figured I'd be really upset
today because of the damper that Stephanie put on my
day but I'm not that upset. I figure I'm not the one runing
the friendship. I'm the one trying to save it from
drownding. She just throws it aside like a unwanted
problem. Hopefully she'll see what good friends we
used to be.


Hahahah heres a funny song that I just thought of...


Well Ali Baba had them 40 thieves
Scheherezad-ie had a 1000 tales
But master you're in luck
Coz up your sleeves!
You got a brand of magic never fails!
You've got some power in your corner now!
Some heavy ammunition in your camp
You got some . . .
And how . . .
See all you gotta do is rub that lamp
And I'll say . . .
Mister Aladdin sir
What will your pleasure be?
Let me take your order
Jot it down
You ain't never had a friend like me
No No
Life is your restaurant
And I'm your maitre d!
C'mon whisper what it is you want
You ain't never had a friend like me
Yes sir, we pride ourselves on service
You're the boss!
The king!
The Shah!
Say what you wish
Is yours
True dish!
How 'bout a little Baklava
Have some of column 'A'
Try all of column 'B'
C'mon whisper what it is you want
You ain't never had a friend like me!
Can your friends do this?
Do your friends do that?
Do your friends pull this out their little hat
Do your friends go
Well, looky here
Can your friends go
And then make the sucker disappear?
So doncha' sit there slack-jawed, buggy-eyed
I'm here answer all your midday prayers
You got me bone fide
You got a genie for your
Charge d'affaires
I got a powerful urge to help you out!
So watcha wish I really wanna know!
You got a list that's 3 miles long no doubt
Well all you gotta do is rub like so and oh
Mister Aladdin sir!
Have a wish or two or three
I'm on the job!
You big nabob!
You ain't never had a friend
Never had a friend
You ain't never had a friend
Never had a friend
You ain't never had a friend like me!
You ain't never had a friend like me!