gummibear212

A new beginning
2002-11-04 03:06:12 (UTC)

It's Sunday and that sucks

I can't believe it's sunday already. The weekend went so
fast. it was parents weekend here at good old bsu. so
thats probably why the weekend felt so short. my mom came
on saturday and met my room mate and her mom. the seemed
to get along fairly well. then we went to watch the
football game. it was pretty cold. my mom only ended up
wanting to watch the half time show and about five minutes
of the third quarter and then we left. from there it was
back to my room to work on my computer a bit. It seems not
to want to shut down anymore. and then erin (my roomie)
came back from walmart and we talked for a bit. then erin
left to go down to indy for a baby shower and the room was
once again just filled with my mom and myself which was
nice. i miss my mom a lot. its difficult because i know
that things are hard for her right now with me not being
there like i was before. but i think she is learning to
adjust. so i emptied out some drawers that had tank tops
and such in them to go home and walked her out to the car
and said good bye. it's hard to watch her leave because
i'm unsure of the home she's going back to. after that i
talked to some people and found out that people are
thinking of coming up to bsu next weekend. just wish i had
known that they were thinking of it. i miss people from
home. and the two i miss the most are the guys of my
life. sean and joe. sean and i talk but i dunno i get the
impression that if he never talked to me again that it
wouldn't bother him too much. and joe and i haven't talked
for too long. i miss him the most. i've known this kid
since kindergarten. and we left for college with out even
saying good bye and that really hurt. i mean it's probably
more my fault than his. but still it bothers me. so i've
been thinking of trying to get a hold of him but not quite
sure how to go about it.

then there is nik. him and i are different every day. one
minute we're good and then the next i'm having doubts
again. he is a lot more into me than i am into him. but
i'm afraid if i loose the relationship that i'll loose the
friendship. i know that, that is something i risk when
getting into a relationship with him but i dunno. ryan is
still in the back of my mind but he isn't such a big deal
anymore since he got back with liz. so i dunno what is
going on with my boys at the moment. obviously not the
right things.

well gotta go i have a whole workbook to finish and that'll
take roughly 2-4 hours and it's already 10 so see ya and
good night.




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