baygirl66

I Debbie...
2001-08-11 04:46:43 (UTC)

Changes

Well, what a month this has been so far. I started at Zales
full-time, we are going to be moveing across the hall , and
Janet is getting a divorce. I am not sure how she will
handle it...she doesn't have the best self-concept
sometimes. Tara and I will probably be the only two who will
have anything decent to say about Rodney. There is always
three sides to an arguement...hers, his,and the truth. I
can't believe I am quoting Johnny at work...but he actually
had something intelligent to say for a change. The move will
be a good thing. I just hope I don't decide to shoot Brian
in the process. He sure as heck isn't motivated to get his
butt in gear. It will all get done..I have to just stay
focussed on that premise and not stress myself out. If he
says he will do the dishes I will have to trust that he will
keep his word. He has a different time-table than I do. And
we have two full days to accomplish this. He does everything
all at once whereas I do it piece by piece. This doesn't
make either one of us right. Just different. I think that
Janet/Rodney came as sort of a wake-up call. Letting go of
things doesn't mean loosing control. It just means not
allowing yourself to get caught up in shit that you think
you need to be involved in. It just doesn't matter. Not
really. What is more important.. TRYING TO FIT SOMEONE INTO
A MOLD.....OR LETTING SOMEONE FIND THEIR OWN WAY OF BEING OR
DOING.I MEAN SERIOUSLY. THE END RESULT IS THE SAME.
Ultimately, does that make sence to you?
Okay, now I am quoting Cheryl...strange what some stuff
does to you. It just seems overwhelming that we are pretty
much doing this on our own. But I really am organized.One
room isn't going to make that much of a problem. That is
what I am meaning by nt stressing myself out.
I wonder what someone would say if they saw all the
stuff I write. Amazing or bizarre,..one of the two.




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