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dbnsfg
2002-11-03 13:26:55 (UTC)

Secrets..

hmm..

he knows a lot about me.. a lot of things that i'd never be
able to tell anyone else.. its so easy to talk to about anything and
i dont feel as though i have to be careful.. he seems to
accept me.. theres a lot more to me than maybe even he'll
never know.. but for the first time since i was 7.. i'm
happy.. i feel so relaxed and content with everything.. its
like everything at home has faded into the background and
it cant get to me anymore.. because theres always him at
the end of it all.. telling me that im good.. self
confidence is something i have a serious lack of.. but when
its just he and i, i feel perfect.. i feel loved and i feel
as though i belong somewhere.. now.. many people would
disagree with 'net relationships'.. we're not a couple..
thats not to say that i wouldnt give everything to be his
girlfriend.. just that i dont want to be classed as a net
girl.. i want to be his, in the flesh.. it was so funny
yesterday morning.. well, afternoon.. he came online and
popular had just finished and amber (my sister) was
watching me type to him and she saw me tell him i loved him
and she was ":o you're going out wif him aint ya?.. im
tellin".. she's 15 on the 28th of this month and shes so
annoying but like.. shes my bayby gurl.. my lil sis and me
wubs her even though she doesnt realise it now.. tralala..
i miss si :(.. hes so good for me.. he tells me im the best
thing to ever happen to him.. i think maybe hes the same to
me.. it hurts every second we're not 'together'.. and as
soon as he's back, im all :D.. its funny.. i know that some
people think that feeling so much for someone you've never
met, is silly.. sometimes i sit back and think about it and
it is kind of amusing.. but i love him.. i cant help it..
and i want to be with him.. i will be with him.. things
just take time..
i have to go.. i'll write later


~* Natalie *~




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