Locked Inside my Book
2001-08-11 03:05:46 (UTC)

Rotting away!

I'm soooo bored!! i wouldn't be so bored if i were WITH MY

ok i had to get that out b/c i'm soo mad. it's so pointless
for me to be here. i have nothing to do and all my friends
are in franklin.

I was listening to Pantera earlier. I love the song Floods
on the Great Southern Trendkill cd. I got the lyrics to it
too... here they are.....


A dead issue, don't wrestly with it, deaf ears are sleeping
A guilty bliss, so inviting (let me in), nailed to the cross

I feel you, relate to you, accuse you
Wash away us all, take us with the floods
Then thoughout the night, they were raped and executed
Cold hearted world
Your language unheard of, the!
vast sound of tuning out
The rash negativity is seen one sadly
burn away the day

The nervous, the drifting, the heaving
Wash away us all, take us with the floods
Then thoughout the day mankind played with grenades
Cold hearted world
And at night they might bait the pentagram
Extinguishing the sun
Wash awaythe man, take him with the floods

That's the song. it's soo awesome. The ending is the best
I love music, it's the only thing i have to enjoy in my
I'm a bad person anyways, my mom thinks i am selfish and
that all i do is think about myself but the one thing i
dont get is where she is seeing that. i'm just not all
there and i'm constantly daydreaming so i guess i'm not
asking all the right questions of how to make everyone
else's life better. I don't think i should even bother
anymore, i've tried to make other people happy but no one
even cares. they just act like i didn't do shit and walk
all over me. there's no way i'm putting up with that shit.
I've stopped trying. I'm not trying to please anyone but
i have so much anger in me. This world is so fukked. People
are so into materialistic shit and what's worse is that
i've become one of them. haha!
i think the government blows! They're stealing money from
me. i worked my ass off this summer and i'd have a hell of
a lot more money in my pockets if they didn't take so much
money out of my checks. And they say stealing is a crime.
fukk that. I might as well think of it as controlled
savings. Like they keep it in a bank and give it back to me
whenever that time of the year comes where they give u your
shit back.
well i guess who ever just read this just learned a lot
about me such as I bitch a lot! It's all i can do.. oh yea,
i can also be a smart ass! i do it soo well. In this diary
you won't see much being written about guys in my life b/c
i enjoy the single life and plan on keeping it that way for
a while. i haven't found the right guy that i want a
romantic relationship with. I'm young anyways (almost 17).
i don't need that shit right now.