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my thought bubbles
2002-11-02 22:06:23 (UTC)

momories

wow....i never thought growing up and goin to hs would
be so complicated. it seems that that there were more bad
memories made in the past year and a half than good
ones.
goin to ND was so much fun. at first i just hung out
with the same people from SVdP..but we all sort of drifted
off and made our own friends. i knew allie from
gradeschool...but we had never cliqued well for various
reason that dont need to be brought up. but freshman year,
i started hangin around her right around the end of first
semester. the first semester i hung out with erin adn
jamie mostly. but when homecoming came along, that all
changed! so then when me and allie started hangin out,
thats when the fun began! especially at snowball! we
stayed up all night...so many memories and massages! that
was sat and sun..monday was my birthday! allie wasnt at
school, and turns out was sick the rest of the
week...right along with me.
then things changed.
she met david. well, she would come to me alot bc she
didnt know what to do; she liked him..ALOT but the age
diff was a problem. so then i was introduced to him, and
well...lets just say we got along real well. but that
wasnt the best thing. bc she did like him, but i ended up
hookin up with him. it was hard. really hard for the three
of us even! we got through that. so then i started hangin
out with him she had met mike at snowball and ''the
group'' welcomed her with open arms. so we didnt really
hang out on teh weekends as much.
detassling started in july and it was great. i got to
see every1 again, and meet more ppl. still, things were
rough bt me and david, but better. then my parents started
hell. granted, it was my procrastination that got me into
RHS, but i did think it was sort of extreme.
everything, literally, was causing me to hit rock
bottom. seriously. things werent great at all bt me n
david, i was on a no talkin basis with my parents, allie
was constantly with 'the group' and school was startin at
RHS while all my friends were at ND. it was hard for em to
start school. and that constantly caused me to think of
alot of things. which caused another fight bt me and
david.
the past 2 months have been great compared to the
summer. not phanominal, but great for me. i still takl to
ND ppl, and im still best friends with allie (and always
will be) and david and i havent fought for 3 months!
i still think about ND constantly and how i miss
everythigna dn every1. this is weird for me to say, but im
not sittin on the edge of my seat just waiting to go back
to ND, but i am inticipating it. i love ND,and RHS is O
k...they both have their advantages and disadvantages.
i have been through such a rollercoaster, and it caused
me to not take things for granted. i look at things
differently now. thats also why i named my
diary 'stereotypical teen soap'. its a joke bt me and
allie, but its true. everything that has happend to me,
makes me feel like im living a freakin soap opera! but its
great to know that i have two of the best and most
important people to me, as my best friends. i didnt think any1 would
understand how i was feeling. and maybe they didnt know off-had, but
they listend. that was the best thing they could do and i appreciate
it.i dont know what i would do without allie and david. i dont know
where i would be in life.




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