Ode to a psycho!HA!
2002-11-02 20:54:15 (UTC)

Moral dilemma

I still like nick. ok, I know, but I can't help it. I've
thought about this subject endlessly, and believe me,
ENDLESSLY is an understatement, and what it boils down to is
this. I have absolutely no closure on anything that went on
during our relationshiip. I don't know how he felt about
anything then, and I don't know how he feels about anything
now. I think that until I have that closure I won't be able
to put him out of my mind. This is a partially proven theory
because I haven't been able to stop thinking about it for
nine months, and a total of 14 months including the time we
dated.My solution is this: walk up to him monday mornig,
tell him that we need to talk right then, drag him away from
his precious friends and make him talk. I don't want to have
to look at him everyday and wonder about what's going on in his head,
and why he always just looks at me, and never says anything. I believe
I deserve answers to all of these questions flooding my mind, and I
won't be able to sleep at night until I do.