le soleil et la lune
2001-08-09 20:24:34 (UTC)

a few more words on today

I felt like I needed to say a few more things about being
ignored. I understand that people have other friends than
those that are in the little group I hang out with.
However, I don't understand why, the minute school starts,
we are no longer important. I mean, when a person who
you've been really good friends with for the past 4 years,
spends a grand total of 2 minutes talking to you in the
morning, and then spends the rest of the day(lunch, class,
breaks, after-school, whatever) with these other people, it
feels like, I don't know, like we're backup friends in case
the newer friends are unavailable, and it isn't the
greatest feeling in the world. I know I'm not the only one
who feels it. I mean, Amanda and Katie have just resigned
themselves to accept it. But today Katie was talking to me
about the journalism conference, and she said she'd love to
go, but she was afraid that CJ was just going to ignore her
and blow her off. He's the only one she would really want
to hang out with if I didn't get to go. She shouldn't
EVER, have to worry about that. And the sad fact of it is,
that's what she thinks is going to happen.

Anyway, I guess I'll get used to it, and maybe it will
eventually not feel so crappy.

On a side note, at lunch today Amanda said that she thinks
these diaries are going to tear the group apart. Well, if
people thoughts and opinions in written form are going to
do that, it would eventually happen anyway.