milly

in love with clay
2002-10-30 08:22:25 (UTC)

my husband has returned

I feel like death. I have this terrible longing all the
time. I don't really show it because I am strong but when
I am not with him. I want to be happy I am not used to
worrying this way. I think of him, I dream of him.
But I go ahead and do the things that I have to do.
Because if I can just save time to see him it will be
worth it. We will meet up sometime twice a week at least.
I didn't know I could miss him so much and feel so
deprived when he's not around.
I'm playing along with the hubby, he's asking me if I"m
depressed or if my moods are reocurring. Suddenly he is
nice to me. I mean he has been a very decent man but not
what I needed.
I'm going to read for a bit and go to bed.I can talk to
Clay about so much, he pays attention to me.

cmlialyly




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