Black_Sno

Endless abyss of nonsense and sorrows
2002-10-30 03:12:02 (UTC)

DAMNIT I HATE MY LIFE!

i thought everything was ok... but look:

Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
this is leah
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
weres matt
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
HELLO
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
if u don't freaking talk to me
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:

Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
Freaking a
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
manda fucking talk to me or die
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
MANDA
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
DAMNIT
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
IF U DON'T FUCKIGN TALK TO ME
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:

Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
YA WELL I HOPE UR HAPPY
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
AS HE TALKS TO U
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
AND IS UR BEST FRIEND
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
I SIT AROUND WAITING FOR HIM TO TALK TO ME AND IT IS GOING
TO KILL ME SONNER OR LATER
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
FORGET IT I SHOULD HAVE NEVER INTRODTUCED U TWO IN THE
First PLACE
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
then i wouldn't be replaced
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
?
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
he totally hates me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
oh god im so fucking sorry
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i have the sound turned off
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
and the toolbar didnt pop up
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
im sooooooo sorry
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
oh god
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
and u know wat...how long have i tryed to get him to paint
his nails black he does it as soon as u do
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what?
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
whats going on?
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
fuck
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
fuckboth of u
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leahhh
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
i m done u guys can go off by urslef
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
forget me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
DAMNIT YOUR BEING DUMB
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
AND YOU ACT LIKE THIS TO ME
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IVE DONE NOTHING INTENTIONAL AND YOU FUCKING GO OFF ON ME
AND FUCKING BREAK MY HEART
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
FUCK
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
are you done being mad at me now?
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
oh ya i just got over this shit manda...
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i was just wondering if you were done expressing your
madness towards me and you were ready to talk to me... and
see that you are my best friend and matt's too and we want
you to be our friend more than anything.. and we would
never hurt you intentionally
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
fuck u both...hes ur best fucking friend shit i have never
hated u more
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leah
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
please
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
he is not
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
just ask him
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
he doesnt like either of us more than the other
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
he fucking won't even fucking talk to me u stupid bitch so
don't say that shit
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what?
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
damn u
Its A Good Life Thats What Im Told says:
you stole him from me!!! he hates me!!
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
matt is my FRIEND... DAMNIT HE WAS GOING OFF TO ME HOW HE
WISHED LEAH WOULD DATE HIM
Fu** U ALL!
says:
this is leah
Fu** U ALL!
says:
I HIM AS A FUCKING FREIND DAMNIT
Fu** U ALL!
says:
IF U COULD FUCKING STEP OUT OF UR POOR AMANDA LIFE THEN U
COULD SEE HOW THE REST OF THE WORLD WORK
Fu** U ALL!
says:
S
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
im not worth enough to worry about who i like better...
which... cant be told. you guys are all my best friend for
a different reason.. but that doesnt fucking matter !!! I
DONT GIVE A SHIT... ALL I KNOW IS THAT ALL I TRY TO DO IS
MAKE PEOPLE OK AND ALL I DO IS GET SHIT!!! BUT THAT DOESNT
MATTER... EVERYONE HATES ME AND IS ON THE SAME SIDE NOW..
SO EVERYTHINGS COOL
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IM NOTHING
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
A PEICE OF SHIT
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
A BITCH
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
A WHORE
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
I AGREE WITH YOU
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IM WORTHLESS
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
YOU HAPPY?
Fu** U ALL!
says:
SHE HAS BEEN FUCKING CRYING FOR TWO NIGHTS BECUASE OF U GUYS
Fu** U ALL!
says:
EVEN AT SCHOOL
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
WHAT THE HELL DID I DO???
Fu** U ALL!
says:
SO U TELL ME
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IVE TRIED SOOOO HARD TO MAKE HER BETTER.... IVE ALL I CARE
ABOUT IS THAT ALL MY FRIENDS ARE OK AND HAPPY... SO IF
BEING PISSED AS HELL AT ME HELPS THAN BE PISSED AT HELL AT
ME
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IT DOESNT MATTER!! IM WORTHLESS..... THATS WHAT IM HERE
FOR.... TO JUST GET PEOLE TO HATE ME
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IT SEEMS TO DO MORE BETTER THAN GOOD
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
SO YOU GUYS GO AHEAD AND TALK BEHIND MY BACK AT ME... IT'LL
MAKE YOU GUYS FEEL BETTER
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
FEEL FREE
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u think the world revolves around u
Fu** U ALL!
says:
and just so u know this is leah now
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
NO I FUCKING DONT
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
I WANT EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
ALL I WANT IS YOU GUYS TO BE HAPPY AND TO DO WHATEVER I CAN
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
HOW DOES THAT MAKE ME THINK THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND ME?
Fu** U ALL!
says:
manda
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u denie everything....u leave the group to cry when things
r n't ur way...
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
I LEFT BECAUSE MATT WAS IN A BAD MOOD AND IT HURTS FOR ME
TO SEE PEOPLE LIKE THAT
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
HOW IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND???
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
fine
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i wont deny it
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
go ahead
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
judge me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
whatever i say isnt doing any good
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
and im just making you madder
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
so go ahead
Fu** U ALL!
says:
manda u fucking act like a goth because of davin
Fu** U ALL!
says:
ur a poser..nothing is ur own
Fu** U ALL!
says:
and ur taking over my life
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what??
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
taking over your life??? wtf??
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u know it is fucking true
Fu** U ALL!
says:
and u probally r fucking copying and pasting to matt but
that just proves my points make me look stupid good one
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
no im not
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i swear to God
Fu** U ALL!
says:
fuck u
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what the hell am i supposed to say??
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i told you the truth and you wont believe me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what the hell do you want me to do?
Fu** U ALL!
says:
its easy stop talking to me u lie the whole time i hate
this place i hate these ppl i wasn't even this hurt with
curtis
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
how do you know im lying??
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what makes you think im lying??
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i swear on my life... my dads grave, on my mothers head....
I swear to God.. whatever you want
Fu** U ALL!
says:
because u always do
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i have not lied to you this whole time
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i swear
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
ok. just tell me... what would make you happy? do you
want me to never speak to you again? ok. do you want me
to tell you the truth? ive already done that
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
just tell me what you want
Fu** U ALL!
says:
i want u to undo wat u have already done
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
how?
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
tell me?? what have i done?? how can i make it right??
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
just tell me!! i will do anything to make you happy
again... and maybe even be my friend again, even though
that seems unlikely
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u fucked up everything and took over my life bitch
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
how??
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u did this once and now u did it again
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
whatever it is ill stop!! i didnt know i was doing
anything!! i swear to you i will do anything!!!
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
please... just be happy and dont be mad at me
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u messed up my life
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
please tell me how
Fu** U ALL!
says:
i wonder
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
PLEASE
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
IM AN IGNORANT FOOL
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
and i have no clue
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
all i was trying to do was make people happy
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i didnt know i did that
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u took him away from me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leah.... he doesnt see it that way... ill i did was talk to
him once... i didnt take him away from you... why would i
do that???? HOW could I do that???
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
just ask him
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u did bitch u tell me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i didnt! how does talking to him once do that?
Fu** U ALL!
says:
obivously...u guys spend all ur free time together so u
tell me
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
no we didnt
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
what are you talking about?
Fu** U ALL!
says:
i hate u god i have never been so pissed
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leah... what the hell did i do??? was this because i talked
to him that night???
Fu** U ALL!
says:
it was just because u were with him the whole day on sunday
didn't u notice my 'mood' i had to take pills to stop
myself from killing u when u walked through the door
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leah.... i was over at his house on Sunday because i could
go to austins.. his parents were going to his brother's
house and he was hunting.. i had nowhere to go.... and we
went to his house... and talked to you on the phone... then
we picked his mom up and came out and got you
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i mean i couldnt go to austins
Fu** U ALL!
says:
ya good one manda
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
you dont believe me??? go ahead.. call austin.. he'll tell
you. he was still hunting on sunday, and thats why he
didnt go to mornging services
Fu** U ALL!
says:
so y didn't u go home
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
cause i had no way
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
mom didnt want to come pick me up
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
she told me 'find someplace to go in town'
Fu** U ALL!
says:
y did u go with my best friend
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
he was the only one in town that i knew!
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
god leah..... i swear to god
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i figured since we were getting together later it would be
easy this way instead of making mom take extra trips
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u say his name in vain so much
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i am right now because im sad as hell!!
Fu** U ALL!
says:
o great
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
leah
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
i dont want you mad at me
Fu** U ALL!
says:
u r a cristen r n't u
Fu** U ALL!
says:
bye bitch
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
its killing me to see that you are mad at me... i didnt
mean to do anything
SnOwAnGeL ( I would only talk to me if you care enough
about me to not judge me ) says:
....................... im sorry..

what the hell am i supposed to do with that?
scuse me... im gonna go.... take a shower




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