Dezi

Curiouzitie
2002-10-30 00:25:39 (UTC)

this is old

I finally decided to write in one of these things..
hopefully i'll stick to it. I'll try and write in this one
a day-to-day basis..
Jenny is moving away tomorrow. That would be so cool is she
just like changed her mind an hour before she was about to
go.. ::wishes:: i saw her today. i was stretching because i
was tired and she like stuck something in my pants. I was
like "what the hell?" and i reached down and grabbed it and
it was a condom.. she said "i don't trust you anymore.." i
was like "uh okay, i'm a good kid." I got up awhile later
and their was another one in my pants but i didn't know
what it could have been until i physically looked at it.
sad, eh? She thinks i'm having to much drama in my life for
being in ninth grade, maybe she's right..
If you know me, you probably know all about what's happened
this week.. I gotta say though i kinda regret *almost*
everything that's happened this last couple of days.
There's nothing worse in the world than being caught, at
anything.. Plus i feel like a idiot.
Jesse hasn't called for two days. it's a miracle.. i think
the people who know about him are saying more to him then
they're telling me.. lol..i mean he just stopped calling
all together, but it could have been lots of things...
Another really sucky thing that is going on is, FRIENDS..
They all like think i'm keeping stuff from them, which i
am, but only because i don't think they'd act the same
around me anymore or it'd just make things complicated.. I
think i'm making things worse by telling them a fake little
story or only a little part of a event so they wont ask
about it anymore. I don't know it just sucks. People get
pissed at me when i don't tell them every little detail in
my life that's going on. I'm a hypocrite for saying this
but, I HATE it when people say they know something about me
and they don't tell me what.. They expect me to guess, and
it's just not the funnest thing. I don't hang out with my
old friends like at all anymore and they're getting pissed.
they don't say it but they act like it. I kinda choose
other things to do and ignore them. I don't know what to do
though, i'm just always in the mood to go do other things
with other people... :( Basically i'm choosing other things
over them..
I hate waking up for school in the morning, it's like the
worst thing, i don't like to be messed with that early.
I'll start cussing if people piss me off (i get pissed easy
in the mornings).
wow. i said more than i thought i would come close to
saying..




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