why_me_beacause

no more tears 2 cry they dryed up & went
2002-10-29 00:50:11 (UTC)

Oh Happy Day....kinda

Today was just another day one in a lot to come.
What did I do today?....

Well you ask I went to school.
Aren't I a cool kid or what?

Tomorrow I get to go see my yellow headed skinny
preppy looking nice sweet straight haired counciler
Amy.......

Part of me doesn't like her yet but the other part of me
wants to like her but some of me doesn't but she has
toys in her office and I don't get to play with them I
haven't asked yet.

My mom told her a lot about me....Somehow they think
I'm suicidle....umm yeah like I would be damn 3 people
killed themselves in my school the last 3 years and well
why would I want the lable of being the 4th??????


You know I just don't understand peoples logic cause
well I'm just fine always will be and am......sure I write
real suicdle stuff but I think it sounds cool and well I
would never do something like that now.....

I mean for years sure I wanted too I had nothing going
for me but now I have everything going for me.

I have so much too look forward too and if I ever want to
be famous I can't be dead to do that...unless someone
kidnapps me or something but that shouldn't happen
I'm a big kid now......

I don't know really I just think that my mom is "helping"
me too much but I guess I will be all right with it she
has won for now.

And one of my best friends.....were not real good friends
anymore...I guess I really don't have anyone that I have
as a best best friend right now...Jamie is getting there
but it's hard to talk to her sometimes.....she has gone
through so much more then me and my stuff seems
stupid compared to hers........*sighs*

I guess this is just another big change in my life and
that things will get better.....

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger......damn
I hope so......

I leave here with a bad feeling ....councilers are
freaky......but good day to whoever read this or whatever
I just wrote too much and yeahness for me I used
capitals and periods. I'm doing good today.


---Hallie




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