Starz

The Life and Times of Myself
2002-10-28 00:05:28 (UTC)

1000 Is Good, 999 Is Better

When I was laying in my room today in the middle of my bed,
looking out my skylight, counting all the cloulds that
rolled past i came to a relization about myself. I'm a
lozer, at heart, i'm sure there's something drastic i
can do about it to fix it, but my confidence in myself is
somewhere in the negatives...(When this happened i'm not
sure, i dont think i was like this before...(?)...) Its
like i just woke up one day and was like "Oh Yeah, Mental
Note to Self: Your a loser. Thanks for your cooperation."
Grr, I did nothing today at all. I went to WalMart then the
hospital, stopped at Burger King on the way back. That was
my day. Exciting huh? Yeah, thats what i thought. Day two
of my diet went well, I think i only had maybe at the most
1000 calories 26 grams of fat. (The #7, Chicken Sandwich,
no mayo, no nothing, a few fries and a Sprite)Thats all i
ate today. Maybe a few glasses of juice in and out of there
but that is basicly it. (For all of you thats not up on the
whole dieting scheme like me the average person is *SOPOSED
TO* consume about 2,500-2,800 Cals per day.) Well thats the
healty way to eat, thats what the doctors want it to add up
to. But i know all of you eat more, probably up in the
3,000's i would guess, most cases even more. Thats so
bad!!! It makes me cringe just thinking about it.It takes
3,500 cals extra or less to gain or loose a pound of fat.
Think about that next time you wanna hit up pizza Outlet or
take a trip down to the McDonalds. Its it really worth it?
Thats the thought i'm tryin to keep in my mind while on my
diet. I think i am training myself to hate food, everything
i look at something to eat now i think to myself,"The
begining is always today." I know its gay, but it really
does work. If you ever dieted before you know the 1st day
of your diet you are ready to go, your like,"Yeah, this is
the 1st day and its going to go great, i'm going to eat
healthy and i'm going to like it." then by the second and
third day you are getting tired of it and your like "Eh,
maybe that pizza over wont do too much damage" or "I can
really go for some ice cream right about now." Thats when
you say my little quote, heh, its always your first day
then! TAKE THAT CRAVINGS! ::Evil Grin:: (You like that,
Don't Cha??) Yeah, well, i think my self image plays a big
part im my depression that i have had lately so maybe if i
do this and loose a few pounds i might feel a little
better. i hate being fat and ugly!!(EWW!) Oh well, i'm
getting bored of this and i think i'm probably speaking one
or two levels over the majority of this audience so i'll
catch you tomorrow with another "Exciting Thought That
Plagues Me" and the "Life and Times of Myself." LoL, like those
titles? Bet your looking foreward to it huh? (*Hears sharp silence…
Now crickets chirping…Umm, Yeah, I think thats about the end of the
tour.*)

~Starz




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