Timothy

Jack's Twisted Kingdom
2002-10-27 06:10:05 (UTC)

Taurean Dreams...

A lonesome song of dreary times...
once lamented and thrice demented...
I am falling...

The poems that once came to hand
now seem a distant and careworn
dream

one only has to look upon the landscape
of my last few weeks, and one can see
all that is, was,

I am lost, in some sort of oblivious
dream like state, I hate, no, too harsh
I intensely dislike everything

sigh, bloody, sigh...

once, I would have thought, that I could
do anything, and I mean. I still do, but there
just seems to be this void,

I would like to think that it is because I am
lonely, and I mean, I am... but I can't just
find a grrl and bang, everything is okay

because it's not... that would make me happy
yes...

but it wouldn't keep me that way for long, if
it really did anything, it would simply mask
that which I feel...

and for some reason, it's why I think things
with kristin were so bad...

I was basically an unhappy person..

and i still am...

and of course, I lash out, blame, curse...

everyone but me... I am the cause,

so who i wonder will help me with the cure?

I don't know... I wonder if anyone can, besides
me of course... so how the hell am I going to get
my fucking act together?

good bloody question...

I think I am beggining to understand...

I needed closure with Kristin, and got it...

I know, I need closure with "my goddess of the sky"...

and got it... messed me up something good tho...
for a little while....

I need a goal, I need a focus, I need something...

to look forward to...

schools out, I am too fucked up right now to continue...

and I would make a mess of it anyways I am thinking...

so, what am I to do?

only I can answer that question...


lost in the twilight of the crushed moonlight
gazing upon the face of glorious love
I grope about blind, to the touch of passion

~Timothy~

Blind, and groping in the dark... looking for light....