1/2n1/2 The Coffee Creamer

Scribblings on The Public Bathroom Stall
2002-10-26 07:07:08 (UTC)

*Sigh* I did a horrible, god..

*Sigh*
I did a horrible, god awful job in encore today.
Felt like crap.
Got a letter telling me thanks for trying but you aren't
qualified to have a job at the library.
Felt worse.
Found a bunch of fun stuff to make Halloween costume, and I
do mean make one...
Felt slightly better.
Took dog out, and was eating my dinner while doing so, well
that is until she took it out of my hand and proceeded to
eat it.
Felt unhappy...dude that was my freakin' dinner!
Got home, left quickly, to go to football game.
Couldn't find friends, felt worse.
Found friends, friend bummed, couldn't cheer her up very
much, felt worse.
Kept on smiling and pretending I was happy.
Felt worse.
Got home, was worn out, went out to take Anna home.
Got back 2 hours later, felt even more so tired, and still
bummed.
got on computer, no one to talk to, and not much e-mail, no
messages...
Read a person's online journal, a friend of mine wrote this
entry that made me feel even worse!
She wrote about how lonely she is, she's been single for 2
and a half years I think she said.
I top that by so much.
Today i am exactly 16 years and 8 months old.
I have been single for 16 years and 8 months.
Isn't that funny?
That's freakin' hilarious, please hold while I try to stop
laughing and crying at the same time.
You want lonely?
Try to be me, and know what lonely is.
I doubt I will ever date in high school, or in college, or
ever....
I'm not askin' for pity, I'm not askin' for compassion, I'm
venting, because I need to.
I better go, before I get worse...
-1/2n1/2 The Coffee Creamer




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