pips_girl

ashley e.
2002-10-25 14:42:25 (UTC)

October 25

2day was a sad day 4 me...my really good friend matt left 2day..i was
cryin all day...i still am...i miss him already...im cryin almost as
much as i was the day pip left...matt was there 4 me when pip was
gone...he came over EVERYDAY after pip left 2 check up on me...cuz i
USE 2 b suicidal...so he would c if i did nething...and c if i was
gonna b ok...i didnt say this i the last diary but when he broke up
w/ me in december...i tried 2 kill myself...and i was in the hospital
4 a few days...and matt was there w/ me the whole time...he only left
2 get food 4 me and him...and i had a prob. w/ eatin...i couldnt
eat...and he alwayz made me eat @ least once a day...jus 2 make sure
nothin happened 2 me...so i wouldnt get really sick from it...and
everytime me and pip would fight...he was always there 4 me...pip
gave me permission b4 he left 2 fuck matt if i needed it...and we
didnt cuz we were jus good friends...yea...we would play around
sometimes bout it...but nothin happened...the most that happened
was...when me and my (now x)girlfriend(yes im BI)...were hangin out
w/ him...and me and her were makin out...and i jus kissed him on the
lips and he pulled out his dick and i kissed it...i didnt give him
head..i jus kissed his head...playin around...cuz he was really horny
4 seein me and my x-girlfriend makin out...newho...the past couple
days...nothin really happened...i jus chilled w/ pip, tony, marisela,
geselle, tim, even, jordan, josh, quintin, andrew, ronny, pj, brent,
tyler and jasmine...thats all really...so...ima go...cuz im cryin
really hard...thats all 4 2day...laterz....
~*~aShLeY~*~