deadwhiteroses

Its raining in my head....
2002-10-23 03:11:47 (UTC)

Cutie...

I have heard that more times in the past couple of days
than I can count. Amazingly enough not speaking to George
feels alright. I mean fuck he did nothing but create
unneeded drama inside my head and its quite a relief to be
done with it. Granted.. I will miss his mouth and his wit
and his soft hands.. and the way he looked at me across the
room.. but ya know what.. its not worth it if he cant trust
me (and I have given him no reason not to) and its not
worth it if he cant tell me where I stand. Fuck it.. I
deserve better and will find that soon.. when I am ready.
So yes.. Cutie.. *grins* it does wonders for my self
esteem. I have lots of issues with my looks.. and well
these nice words couldnt have come at a better time.. and
you know what.. amazingly enough for the first time in a
long time.. I feel really good. And that for me folks is
saying alot. I am so sick of being all doom and gloom all
the time.. fuck it.. that s hould be my new motto.. you
dont have anything good to offer.. you cant be kind and
nice and trustworthy and honest with me.. then fuck it..
lol and fuck you..
Blessed Be
~Dead




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