Bast

Idiocy
2002-10-23 00:47:51 (UTC)

PAIN

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I want to
curl up into a little ball, the pill for the chest pains
helped this morning but now they are back at full force and
I can no longer take deep breaths and if I move too quickly
it hurts and feels like my hearts is trying to break
through my ribcage. I tried to eat but swallowing was
painful. I'm not moving right now and it hurts, it keeps
getting worse and that filmy thing is on my throat only I
keep swallowing thinking I need to when I don't. I don't
know what to do anymore for this. I've tried everything. I
need to eat because I have to take my other pills so I have
to switch to trying to drink noodle soup stuff. Tell me if
this isn't ridiculous? My mother says I will get used to
it, what the fuck does that mean? She doesn't believe shit
that I say. I am paler than usual the other day and I can
barely walk and she wanted me to go into work, my boss
however didn't want me in there so he sent me home. I mean
what the fuck, does she care about anything but her money?
If I go into debt because health conditions force me to
then oh well there is nothing I can do. She needs to stay
out of my life. And this pain needs to fucking stop. FUCK




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