cutter06

A New Day
2002-10-22 19:58:25 (UTC)

falling apart

im on the verge of killing myself, i really am.. everything
is barring down on me, school, this shit with crista and
now today imade jenny cry. plus my family is all over me
like fucking wolves. amanda won't get off my back, fucking
a.

i want to die so badly, i want to just slit my wrists
(Again) and fucking end it right now, whats keeping me
here? nothing. ive lost my best friend and now im done
living, i can't go on, there is NOTHING. only mikey but he
will be better off without me anyways.

all im asking for is one day to my fucking self with no
problems to deal with. i don't think i need to work on
everything at once. w/e. jenny thinks i need to see
someone else, because she doesn't think that shes helping,
but she is and im not seeing anyone else, i don't care what
happens.

"without you im not ok, without you, ive lost my place"
_Dixie Chicks_
im so stupid. i dunno what to do right now, everything is
so fucked up. i think i have a solution...

goodbye




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