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The Adventures of Jules Santana
2002-10-22 12:36:18 (UTC)

Psychosis

Ok, so this weekend was quite the experience. Me and
Orlando went up to NYC to see Rose and JP and had one hell
of a time. It was pretty good, we bought this really
really strong weed in brooklyn while we were with JP and
let me just say its the strongest shit I have ever had in
my entire life, and I've had some really really good stuff
before. But we went up and had some drinks and just really
enjoyed ourselves. I still can't figure out what I want to
do with my life though yet. Like I think I've come to the
conclusion that I want to have fun, and I'm doing a pretty
good job of mastering that whole notion, my problem is I
can't think of goals. Like I need to go to Grad School,
and I really do want to go to Univ. of Penn for Finance,
and I mean since I work there I can go for free, but the
problem here with all of this is that I don't really want
to go right now, and it's pretty obvious that my
grandmother has already made plans for me to be back in
school. I just understand why at this age I still feel
compelled to live my life to aim at pleasing others but I
would say I am getting much better because I won't lie just
to say things that people wanna hear when it comes to me
going back, I just sit quietly or make a hmmmm noise. I
think it's hilarious but let's be realistic, I need to do
it soon. But I can't figure out what the hell I am going
to do now with my life, previously I saw myself moving to
Miami by the time I was 30 and just living there, but
having been back up to NYC, I must admit that there is
always something that sucks me back in. Well I guess it's
not that big of a deal because I'll figure it all out in
due time. My mom came back from Phoenix last night and I
am actually pretty excited to see her when she gets home
from work today, but I konw she's happy as hell to be back
and not dealing with work. Well that's about all, despite
yesterday being the shittiest day that I've had in a long
long time, but I did it up right yesterday by hanging and
havign drinks with Orlando and Wanda and smoking enough of
that strong weed that this morning I am here at work all
stoned still. 12 hours later. Anyway I'm going to go and
pretend to do some more work.




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