Krazy Kat

My Psychotic Ramblings
2002-10-21 19:11:04 (UTC)

What Do I Do?

I keep asking myself that. "What do I do?" I have all
this pressure inside; the anxieties, the anger, the
frustration, the stress, the depression, etcetera. What do
I do with all this crap that's inside? It's growing,
expanding, and the force is so close to being too much to
bear. My first instict is to reach for a razor blade, but
no... I'm so close to having a year, why ruin it? Because
it'd get you through the moment, no? Ha. I should burn
myself with a cig...no, someone would find out. And they'd
make a big deal out of it. Electrocute myself? That's not
enough pain to fulfil me, but it would give me some energy
to fight these feelings off. But for now, Saige and I sit
and write and drink ice cold Diet Coke. I'll think of
something to pull us out of this mess. Don't worry, not
yet.




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