KerouacFemme

Bitch In Seattle
2002-10-20 23:51:05 (UTC)

Marinara Aromatic Atmosphere

An aromatic marinara atmosphere is wafting through
the house as we three lounge aimlessly on this mild
sunday afternoon. Total chill-ville. Re-lax ed ambience.
We have a most delicate ambient background track
going and though my heart yearns for a faster beat and
a higher energy level, my soul just wants its feet up and
wine in its happy belly.
And so I will do.

Nothing quite like doing nothing. Obligations for the day
fulfilled, homework done. Prepared for the next
horrendous week of school and job-hunting. I will be
ready to deal with it all after today.
I have indulge, and will indulge more so.

I was sick after breakfast today until about 1, so I was
forced to chill, but I benefitted from it. Somehow I
always forget that eating eggs makes me sick. I always
get sick to my stomach after eating eggs and I almost
always forget that fact. Needs to be remembered.

Last night - my date with Chad, the 28-year-old.
Dinner, decided at last minute.... Italian. Good.
Beer afterwards - was not carded. Tried new beer.
Good.
Movie - An
American Werewolf in London. Hilarious. Good.
Date took me home afterwards - a bit pushy for my
tastes. Too insistent on me staying at his place or trying
to kiss me a little too forcefully and fervently. To the
point where my refusal of such actions was taken with
offence and followed by more perservearence. I don't
like that situation. It could be good, and it could work out
nicely. But it has potential to be bad. He's too
aggressive and insistant. No.
I already feel uncomfortable with him, and I shouldn't
have to feel that. I don't want to feel that. I should be
able to go out to dinner with a guy and have confidence
that if I have too much to drink, he wouldn't even DREAM
of taking advantage of me.
I don't get that with Chad. Chad scares me a bit with his
strength and attitude. I'm a very sexual being, but his
forcefulness and unrelentingness perturbs me.

No to Chad, says me.

Comments of my Chad situation? I've writtern about it a
million times now. This diary is a chronicle of the Chad
situation.

-KerouacFemme




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