my simple small world
WHAT HAVE I DONE?????????????
what am I doing?what am I gonna do?
it's all happening with no direction....
I never knew feelings like this were out there.
I feel like I better understand heroine useage and suicide.
That maybe I seriously have no purpose and no hope.
I wouldn't mind just killing myself....
I'm serious.This isn't a cry for attention since I'm not
saying it to anyone.I doubt starfish reads this anymore so
I don't think anyone will ever know me saying this.
Just everything would come together if I killed myself.
And alot of peoples lives would benefit in the long run.
Draveia wouldn't be going through this, and would get over
me in like a week, though I don't think he'd shed a tear.
Chris would wake up from the nitemare of my wraith.
Richard......would just be better off.He's the only person
I think would be sad, but his life would be so much better
without me and without this.He doesn't need this as much as
All the knots would be gone...and in my mind that's as good
The headaches would stop....
I might get to see Nathan then too...
The only thing that's keeping me alive is my baby.But I
keep having all these thoughts..
we're I just want my soul to leave....
but I'll try to keep it together for my baby...
though I can't ignore these feelings...