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Black Phoenix
2002-10-20 05:41:07 (UTC)

Unsure

It's been awhile since I wrote here. The reason I write in
my diary is to record thoughts and my perceptions of my
life. I have had no lack of thoughts or perceptions
recently, but the problem is that they have been so
jumbled, so conflicting that I was both too absorbed in
them to write them down and also they were not the sort of
thoughts that can be accurately recorded.

This is ongoing, too, so I really have very little that I
can put into words. So many things are happening in my
head, they flash in and flash out, leaving so many
questions in my mind. For the most part they question who I
am. They are the typical deep phylosophical questions; who
am I, why am I, why is everyone?

I cannot go anywhere. I am stuck with this until it is
sorted out, and I do not know how to do that. It's all
because of me, and I know it. No one has done anything to
me lately, no one has hurt me, no one has really even
interacted with me in any way. All that is happening in the
chaotic confines of my head is because I put it there. I
don't know what will come of it, I don't know how it will
end up. I feel like I'm in transition, but I don't know
what I am becoming.




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