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Memoirs of a Deserted Husband
2002-10-16 16:09:11 (UTC)

Wednesday Morning

It's a painful morning as I look out at the beautiful skies
and wondering what my "used to be" family is doing. As I
ponder on the events of the past couple of nights, I really
wonder what is going thru Tammy's mind. Is she
contemplating us getting back together or am I reading more
into the things, that she says and does, than I should be.

I am still surprised that she invited my family to Adam's
birthday party this Saturday. Not sure why though.
Obviously, she has her reasons, but why?? Only she knows. I
know it's just not me thats wondering why. Dad and Ken are
very surprised. Not sure about Buddy. Havn't spoke to him
to find out. I really have to wonder about the state of
mind Tammy will be in this Saturday with my family being
there. Cause quite honestly??? I could not do that. If the
situation was reversed, and I was the one divorcing Tammy,
I could not bare to look at her mom or dad or any of her
family members in the face, knowing that I was divorcing
their daughter. It would just make me feel like the bad guy
and I would also feel that everyone would be looking at me
saying negative things about me under their breath about
divorcing their family memeber. So I just don't see how she
could invite my family over this Saturday without feeling
any kind of remorse for what she is doing...... UNLESS.....
she thinks that she probably will wind up not doing
anything.

I pray for Tammmy's soul daily. I have for a long time now,
long before this situation started. I pray that something
may be said or done that will get her to see the error of
her ways and come back to the family so we can start over
and make things right between us. And I can help her (if
she'll let me) make things right with God before its
eternally too late. I also pray for Tammy's safety at work
as well. I know she works around a lot of glass on a daily
basis and that she could easily get hurt. She's told me
some horror stories about workers being severely injured
out there. So, on a daily basis as well, I pray for her
safety. Not to mention that I pray for my kid's well being
as well. Never, ever want to forget them. I also include,
in the prayers, her mom and dad.

Tammy...
Don't give up on us and our family, cause I haven't.
Still.... your husband thru out all of this......
Barry




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